And as for remembering the good times, you obviously don't read here much, there's been plenty written, good meditation experiences, good times with premies etcBut one of the reasons why we're looking so critically and anally if you will, at the whole process of rawat through our lives is that we never uttered anything critical of gm for years and years which is VERY unhealthy. I mean he's only a human like all of us, just delivering a message of peace, it's a way of seperating the myths from the facts.
And really Jonx, you won't fully realize knowledge until you let go of your last attachment, the crutch that gm is for all premies. 
It really isn't til you are out on your own that you'll realize just how much conceptual baggage you have on board, and where it came from.
It really is like that old mango story, until you've tasted it it means nothing, and sorry if that comes over as patronising, but it's the reality.
