I've been reading some of these replies, I've not finished reading them all yet. Here is just a quick reply now (at this very late hour of the night where I live - it's almost 3.30am). I'll respond again later maybe at the weekend, when I have more time. But there's not a lot I can say about the details of what actually happened in the whole Jagdeo matter, who told whom when, etc. I wasn't there. I cannot untangle it. But I trust Maharaji with all my heart.Who knows why awful things happen? That's a question for everyone who believes in God. If God knows bad and evil things are going to happen, why does God allow these things to happen? I don't know. That's a question theologians and philosophers have been asking for centuries. But it doesn't stop many people believing in an all-merciful God. Maybe anyone who doesn't believe in God may have a totally different perspective, and that's fair enough, but I do believe in God, and I don't have all the answers. But I have some ways of looking at things which help me make sense of things, though it wouldn't be appropriate for me to discuss these here, they're just my personal way of looking at things. I don't know why I had to suffer abuse at a very young age, which has had very serious long-term consequences which have been detrimental to my entire life. But it has happened. I'm kinda angry at God sometimes, but I know that's not really the right way of looking at it. But in my confusion and ignorance, that's how I feel about it sometimes, but I know there's a better way of looking at it, even if I can't see it. To quote a Brian Wilson song, again, "I know there's an answer".
If it hadn't been for Maharaji, my life would almost certainly have become a real hell, directly and indirectly as a result of the abuse I suffered - that was the direction my life was heading until the day I first heard about Maharaji. So that's what I mean when I think of Maharaji in terms of "God only knows what I'd be without you".
Sometimes when other people on this board talk about Maharaji, and when I talk about Maharaji, it's like we are talking about two totally different people.
Anyway, Susan, I wish you well too. I can see that you are sincere. All I can say to you - in regard to Maharaji - is that, like I said to Cynthia, you need to be very sure about what is fact, and what is inference based upon inference based upon inference.
By the way, to everyone else, nothing will surprise me about what any premie might say or do, that's not the point, as far as I am concerned. I know all kinds of premies - good premies, bad premies, mad premies, sensible premies, etc., etc. I am a follower of Maharaji, it's Maharaji who is important to me, not premies whom I don't even know.
