It's all very personal. You were an ashramie, I think, I was a family man before hearing about DLM. I didn't identify with Rawat in a personal way, I loved meditation and satsang and probably the community of premies as well. My main (unspoken) fear was that Rawat would do even more embarassing and vulgar things. Plus I'm a very optimistic, even irresponsible person so the 'fear' stuff just went over my head.While I don't think Rawat thought any of this out and did it deliberately I think his mixed messages, confusion, illogicality and, in the right environment, confidence allowed different people to pick up on different aspects of his messages. Those same traits were useless in a real critical environment such as the few press conferences they tried and watching the press conference in the Millenium tape these days is very revealing. He was as ignorant as his father when he sent that letter to President Kennedy.
Remember the "I challenge the world" - in his squeaky accent. Oh God how embarassing.
