The ashram closed in '83. For some reason I stayed with it, hoping the super devotional era would resume. I didn't really have anywhere to go. No career skills, life skills, relationship skills. When the ashram closed I was ready to go, but where? I found a room to sublet. Turned out the man had received k and viewed it as fake.
I drifted along and then moved from Santa Monica to Asheville NC as my parents and brother moved there. I found the premies there to be people I didn't want to be around. Smoking a lot of dope, spouse swapping, families breaking up etc. I still drifted along with this vague hope of the return of the devotional times. I got on with my life, enrolled in Culinary School, got married and didn't really think about Prem much until I came across all the discussions on the Forum around 2000.
