I received k in Feb 1974 from the pedaphile mahatma in Atlanta. I was very active in my community and then moved into the assram in Miami (1976). During m's time in Miami I recruited premies to do 'service' on his home there. I 'served' at the residence for a while. I was transferred to several communities as community coordinator as well. I left the assram in 1982 or so. One reason being I saw that premies were turning this into a religion and displayed less care for their own children than for m. I hated seeing premies unfed and unable to pay their own bills yet giving their last dime to m.

Many of my high school friends became premies. Most did not last long as they too saw the cult as it was.

I found many premies were 'nice' so long as you were a believer. Once you doubted or questioned m or any aspect of m's world, they turned their back on you! Dealing with assram premies that wanted to leave I saw the full wrath of hard core premies shutting these 'devotees' out once it became clear they could not "clear up" their confusion. I attempted to support and assist some of these premies but was directed NOT to do so lest I become "confused" myself???

I have written in the past of the so called "love' of premies describing how I had tomatoes thrown at me as I spoke to the community while I was community coordinator because I was dismantling the 'church' and advising premies to live and enjoy life, feed themselves and their children and only give m money if...IF they had money to spare. I was brutally beaten up by several "religious" premies because I didn't support their turning k into a religion.

After leaving the assram, I encountered a few (not many) premies I had affected and was thanked for opening their eyes to being able to live life on their own without the cult. Most however, shunned me as I no longer was a believer. I have kept in touch with one or two and we have agreed not to discuss m or k as they realize my life is fine without m and I don't want to force them to face things they aren't wanting to deal with.

For me.... the fruits of m or k do NOT bear out. Premies are not "shining" examples of enlightened beings, nor are they particularly happy or content. Many in fact are quite miserable and look as if they are 'beaten'. Not much life ..enthusiasm or displays of 'love'! In fact quite the opposite.