You make my day, it's 6:30 am here and i could'nt sleep so i logged in there.
BTW I love you all. This forum has been - and still is - such a help to me in the process of understanding what is what and who is who in this mess of that stinky cult.

Yes, this is the most unlikely thing to do as a premie to recover one's trust (in ourselves). And i just love it!

I recently talked with a premie friend of mine and he blankly said the 'there is no more organization left' line right in my face (though that was by telephone). I don't know if they have this particular gross party-line in the US, but it's very common here in France - maybe because of the anti-cult laws we have here. I'm on the verge of dropping this guy's relationship.. No, maybe i'll email him with some good questions. Maybe it'll help.

Have a nice dy.