Thanks for this Jasper. I think I will be processing this for the rest of my life! I don't think about the ji that much, but I think about what being in a cult has done to my spirituality. I have a good friend that is a Buddhist and she will try to get me into her sect. I tell her that I am allergic to gurus, religion and sects. I am unable to practice any form of meditation. For me that really sucks.
I still, after all these years of being an ex (since 2003), have not sorted out what visions and experiences were valid and what were the result of emotional hype.
As I have previously mentioned, I don't seem to be able to form healthy equal romantic relationships.
Career stuff, meh. I worked in the kitchens as a slave in the ashrams, I got a culinary degree, and slaved in the Country Clubs for the elite.
My Buddhist friend asked me if there was ANYTHING positive about being in the cult of ji. I can't think of anything. Really. NOTHING.
Karen