I get this feeling that you would love to engage in dialog with me but you cannot because you either have been told to not discuss certain issues in depth, or you just don't have a leg to stand on in that arena and you know it.  That's a tough spot, I know.  Been there and done that.

I know that feeling sorry for you is not good for either of us.  The most compassionate thing for me to do is to step back and let you find out for yourself, so that you really know this is not personal between us even though there is great temptation to make it so in Forum dialogs that are not sincere and honest on both sides.

Forget positions and affiliations and just look at it from the point of a human being without the filters that you accepted years ago.  Kids got hurt all over the world for years by someone who was under the direct supervision of someone who claimed to be the Lord, Omnisicent, who denies he ever knew anything about it.....man, if that was in my frig I'd throw it out it smells so rotten.