It has amused me to finally figure out that there really is absolutely nothing to Knowledge.  It simply doesn't exist.  There is nothing behind the four techniques.  Breath is simply lung action, etc. 

And this is the reason that people like Gok need to be reminded again and again.

A premie friend visited me from out of town this year, three or four months ago.  She said that she has dedicated her life to the power behind the breath, meaning Holy Name, the Word, the Logos, the Elan Vital, Prana, God, Spirit, Universal Energy, Primordial Vibration, Big Daddy.

I looked at her and didn't know whether to laugh or cry.  Of course's she wrong.  She hasn't dedicated her life to some energy field anymore than I have.  She just is telling herself a little bedtime story over and over again.  I guess it makes her feel good.

And now people are going to be exposed to the Five Keys, and they will practice in hopes of finding something behind the breath.  And "it" will remain as mysterious for them as it is for any and all of us now.

There is no transformation into superhumaness.

All we really have to do is be honest with ourselves and with other people.  Let's relax, shall we?

I try to remember myself as a premie.  And it's a little difficult, because I can't put myself back into believing that Knowledge is going to help me somehow.  But I did believe it for quite awhile.    On the other hand, there is something in me still that I think was the primary motivation for me as a premie, and that is simply the hope for an intelligent and loving mind being behind the manifest universe.  I still hope for that.  It's the only thing that makes sense to me.  I can't even grok hydrogen without refering to intelligence.  How and why does energy combine itself into that particular arrangement? 

Anyway, that reminds me.  I'm invited to a Halloween party.  I have recently taken up Poi, the fire spinning dance from New Zealand.  I don't spin fire yet, I simply spin LED lighted balls that I get from Neon Husky, online.  It's really cool to dance with these lights on strings swirling all around you.  I have many difference colors of lighted balls.  But for my Halloween costume, I am going to use my green balls, because I think of electrons as green, and I am going as an atom.  I think helium is the atom that has two electrons, so my green poi are going to be my electrons.  I am going to buy a green, electric-looking wig also, and somehow clothe myself as a nucleus as well.

The universe IS dancing light.  You can't deny that.