I have to go now, too.

But yes, that was good English and I do understand you better now.  You are not of the old mystical school, even though you use the words "inner energy."  And I think that what you are experiencing is what I experienced, good old-fasioned love.  And love is mysterious enough.

I do understand now from your perspective, practicing Knowledge and seeing Rawat are good experiences for you, because of the good feelings that are generated.  That used to work for me, too.  But not everything that generates good feelings is really a good thing to pursue.  Drugs are just one example.  There are other considerations.  Like truth.

Oh, by the way, I must say right now that I never use the term "spark of divinity" myself.  I was quoting some other people who use that term in regard to the Knowledge of the guru.  I most definitely do not consider myself qualified to talk about divinity or to use that term.