And I think there are also common experiences which can give us a bit of a map of subterranean realities (glad you like that phrase) - you have that sense that what you are experiencing is something many people have before you.

And it is no more than our common shared reality - that vision of mine was backed up by the daylight reality of people telephoning.

So to my mind (may the saints preserve us) the massive disconnect between subterranean and daylight reality is because of all the gaslighting.

And I think it is where we are on the same page with the rest of life, not just humans that we get confirmation we are grounded in our reality map.

eg.  Two humans and one cat in a room with the tv on.  Cat jumps off my sofa where she has been curled up with me and stands in the middle of the room.  She looks at him, so I do too and I have a subterranean vision of an emotional cesspit - well what's new, he keeps looking like that to me but I don't really believe myself so I look at the cat and she looks at me.  "What are you doing, how can you just sit there", she said in perfectly good if silent English, "well I'm not" and then her tail went straight up, she turned round and stalked out the door into the garden and sedately walked all the way over to the studio and guess what, for once I listened and I followed her.

Painful realities. 

Believing in Rawat went so deep and yet once you stop believing him he is so paper thin he is nothing and you are left with nothing for the investment you made in him but at last you have yourself back and that is priceless.