The particular cul de sac that premies are wedged into is that caused by their pathological need to deny that they have 'belief'. So if I may can I ask what you believe about 'meditation', how that belief has changed since you rejected Rawat and whether you consider that change in belief (if any) has affected your 'experience'.

Sorry I was late in my reply.

What do I believe about meditation?  Not much.  I just do it because it makes me feel better.  I might as well ask myself what my belief is about brushing my teeth.  I'm pretty much an athiest at this point.

The belief slowly changed after rejecting Rawat and that change in belief has not in any way affected my experience of what ghi calls "not emotion, nor thought, but stillness and energy".