BOD,
You obviously continue to value the meditative experience - as of course do millions of people following tens of thousands of different meditation methods also do.
The particular cul de sac that premies are wedged into is that caused by their pathological need to deny that they have 'belief'. So if I may can I ask what you believe about 'meditation', how that belief has changed since you rejected Rawat and whether you consider that change in belief (if any) has affected your 'experience'. - Of course this is very personal so please don't feel you have to answer this.
It's just that I have this image of the collective premie mind, that is no more than a petulant infant, who when faced with some inconvenient but unavaoidable truth, who responds by: Stamping, spitting kicking, screaming and thowing themself on the floor, shouting "no it isn't, no it isn't"; as though by sheer force of their intense egoistic will, reality can be reshaped in their image.
Nik