Guru Maharaj Ji's Satsang, Hans Jayanti, Tuesday, November 6th, 1979 - Transcript

So dear premies, you know, just for us. It's another chance to just come together and open up to the experience of Satsang. I mean, there's a lot of initiators that get up and give Satsang and they talk basically about one thing. Our effort. We have to make effort. We have to make effort. We have to make effort. And the thing is, one thing you have to realise cause they're not speaking from a stand. They're not speaking from a place where they have already themselves made a lot of effort. They still have to make effort too, I mean they're not the perfectly realise souls. They appear to be and they're certainly not, you know, I mean, they're initiators. You know, it's like the whole image that goes behind them. You know, the day they were made initiators. But it's nothing like that. It's only one thing to dedicate their lives, to even further more enhance that practise of Knowledge to surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji and experience Guru Maharaj Ji more in their lives. And yet that's no different for any other premie. That's exactly the same thing any other premie has to do too. And it's really beautiful, you know, because yes, it's true. You know, you can get up and you can talk about so many different aspects of what has to be done or what has to be accomplished. Of course. There's a lot that has to be accomplished. There's a lot that has to get done. But most important thing and we seem to so many times forget that that Guru Maharaji's Grace is there. That Guru Maharaj Ji himself is there through thick and thin you know through whatever we go, through whatever we try to pass through, whatever our obstacles are. You know it's like we are covered with obstacles. It doesn't like we have only one obstacle we have thousands of obstacles that we have to bother about and every little thing can become gigantic for us, every little thing can become enormous for us. It's like every odd that's against us is always against us, those never dissipate. Those never subside, those never seem to go away. Those always are there but the thing to remember is not that and we get hooked on it, we get hooked on our minds, we get up and we give satsang and we talk about our minds. We get out of Satsang and we follow our mind and it's like mind becomes so predominant that wherever you go and whatever you do it's there and yet to forget about that mind, let it go.

Sure its there, sure it'll bother you, so what? Guru Maharaj Ji is there too and the power and the Grace of Guru Maharaj Ji is more than the mind. And this is like, in our lives, which direction do we pick? Which way do we go and it's like with that connection between a devotee and Guru Maharaj Ji, that is why that connection is so important because Guru Maharaj Ji will help you every step of the way. Guru Maharaj Ji will give you that Grace every step of the way to walk that path To experience the experience of himself. You see there is a lot of doctrines. There's a lot of philosophies and there's a lot of things in this world and we are victimised constantly and consistently by these things and it's like being at this level you know in a big, you might say, in a big boiling pot. Huge gigantic boiling pot and its like everywhere there's really, really hot water and yet by looking at that hot water, by experiencing that hot water, we cannot get out of the hot water. I mean it's like if you are there in a place which is really really cold and you experience the cold by experiencing simply the cold but realising that you're cold you're not going to get warm. That's impossible to get warm by just thinking about how cold you are. But when you disregard that cold when you get go of that cold and take a step to get warm, that's when you get warm. When you disregard that hot water when you disregard that boiling pot and step out of it, to take the next step out. If it's like for us you know it's really incredible as we live in this world and for most of us it's okay.

You know I mean it's like these initiators get up and give satsang you know about how horrible this world is, sometimes how miserable this world is and for them even at a stage this world was fine they were living you know it's like they were, I mean it's not like everybody sitting here was one or the other time thinking of committing suicide, that's not true. I mean we were living and we were gonna keep living and it's just like that was it and Guru Maharaj Ji comes, Guru Maharaj Ji came in our life, I mean incredible stories how people come to realise Knowledge you know sometimes it's one look, you know, that's it. Just one satsang and that's it, sometimes it's just, it's you know, it's destiny it's the divine Providence for our life and it happens and it clicks you know and it's incredible, it's beautiful and then we receive Knowledge and it's like for that, for that little bug that always lives in cow dung what does he know about anything else in this world. His life, that little bug's life is born in the cow dung and all he does for all his life is be in the cow dung. It's like this, the caterpillar never knows what it feels like to be a butterfly and butterfly never knows what it feels like to be a caterpillar. It's incredible. It's the same stage. I mean first that butterfly was a caterpillar. But when it was a caterpillar, it couldn't fly and it doesn't know what a butterfly feels like when it flies. But it goes into his cocoon and from there a complete transformation happens of looks, of habits, of everything and it emerges as a beautiful butterfly. But what it has become a butterfly it doesn't crawl anymore. It flies. Because that next experience happens to it. And it's like for most of us we were the caterpillars and we would have have been for the rest of our lives. You see it is not necessary that every caterpillar is going to become a butterfly. That's that's the way it is. Everybody butter, every caterpillar is not going to become a butterfly. Why? Maybe somebody will squash that caterpillar. Maybe that caterpillar will die before it ever gets to cocoon. Maybe somebody will come and pick the cocoon up and squash that. You know and it's like OK, there is an expectation that perhaps every day and it's like to me, this whole world is a caterpillar. They don't know what it's like to be a butterfly.

They really don't know what it's like to be human because in this entire humanity, not one thing was done that's human. Everything is done for a personal gain of one or the other kind. You know, it's like what is this whole world about? For that matter, you know what is their experience? What is anybody's experience of this world? They're all these people. You know these refugees. They decided they don't want to live in China anymore. So they get a little boat and they sale out of there and they get to all these places and it's like, "No you can't live here and you can't live there. And here's your food and that's all you can do" and you know all these technicalities involved in people's lives and it's like it's incredible who are we? You know we think that we are some kind of a boss in America, you know we can hold a jacket like this, you know and boss around people's lives. Look at the whole diplomatic approach of governing people's lives, you know there's first there's a sergeant and the sergeant really grinds it in . The sergeant really grinds it and grinds it and grinds it into people's brain that you know just really running thousands of miles probably and it was carrying a lot of load and climbing the ropes and falling into the ditches and ducking and then live fire. I don't know what the whole process is but everyone who believes that part feels totally satisfied with somebody else is gonna go through it too. And as a matter of fact if somebody is exempted from that they don't feel so good about it. It's like "Listen turkey, I went through that and you're going to do the same thing too" you know, "You cannot be exempt" and and then you know the 4 star general or whatever and then even bigger and bigger and then the prime ministers and the presidents of this world and it's just like it's outrageous, it's an endless saga, its not going to go anywhere. Nothing is going to happen to it and it's very simple because everybody is in the stage of caterpillar. You know, it's like this, there might be a leader of the pack in the wolves but he's still a wolf. You know, when all the wolves howl, he's gonna howl too and in this stupid dumb blind world it's just like one blind man trying to lead another blind man.

It's just like, that's it and you know in reality it just reminds me of that one example is that, one day this one little, you know, fox was running around and it was really scary. Somehow it got into the town and there, you know, people just really started throwing rocks at him and and everything and the whole and he came back and the whole package of the jackals was rejecting him, you know, and they were really after him and they were going to just really kill him. So he was ran from there you know he went back home and it was just like he was going to get it, was being rejected by the whole, you know, group of foxes and so it ran and it ran and ran in in dark alleys he fell into this huge tub of dye and he came out and he was blue and as soon as all the foxes saw this blue fox they got scared and they started running away from him. He said wow man this is far out. What have I done to myself? And he looked at himself and he was all blue all over the place and he started to tell them, you know, that he is being sent by the God himself to be the leader of all the, all the foxes in the vicinity and the foxes couldn't dream of anything else and it's like sure you know this must be it, it is the ultimate blue fox (laughter, is there anyone there with any insight at all?) and so everybody you know would always bring food to him and give him everything that he ever wanted. He was having a ball and slowly and slowly his dominance started to lead right into all the animals of the jungle and before you know it he was leading, he was the ruler of all the animals and the lion and everywhere and one night it was a full moon. The foxes started howling, barking and this one was sitting there on his throne and he just couldn't help. Just couldn't help. He couldn't resist and he started doing the same thing and when all those animals saw him, said "This ain't no Lord Fox, this is just another stupid fox, you know, that's coloured blue." They dump some water over him and he became white, you know, his was natural colour again. They beat him till they killed him and it's like to me that's the situation of this world sometimes, you know, we we fall into some kind of a category somehow and we become this ultimate being in one sense.

We start to boss around this entire world like you know it was nothing. No realisation is ever given, no rationalisation is ever given and yet when the time comes to open the eyes how can the blind man open the eyes and see anything when there is no eyes and that you know I mean it's like everything we do is gonna lead us into that, into that pit. So like we are in this, in this world we are these caterpillars that are expected have the destiny, they're expected to someday become butterflies but never cocoon because that cocooning is that Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace. Cocooning is that process in which we completely trust Guru Maharaj Ji and when we completely surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji and it's beautiful because we are devotees. We are premies and it's like Guru Maharaj Ji helps us to make that effort if we let him. You know maybe after listening to all the satsang, premies might go by God you know how can I make so much effort? How can I possibly make effort? What effort is there? And it's like no see you are a puppet and that's what you have to realise but you are this strange puppet that keeps doing takes on its own behalf, keeps messing up the show every time something happens. You're supposed to move a certain way and you automatically start moving another way all together, not synced to anything and it's like all we have to do is just completely let go.

What surrounds, what surrounds us every 24 hours? What are we totally engulfed in and engulfed with? And it's simple, it's our ego. It's our manifestation, another manifestation of mind. I mean, what is ego? You know who its like if this whole world could get rid of ego it would be fantastic but everybody clutches to their little ego. Even, even if you think you hate ego you love it. When that becomes your scapegoat, that becomes the way the mind can attack you and I mean sometimes I've seen ego, you know, being exercised and its ugly. It's an ugly scene. And yet why do we even have an ego for? What will an ego do to us? Every devotee and its so so incredible to just for every devotee, in this world to surrender to Guru Maharaj Ji. It's a perfect life, is the most incredible thing that could ever happen. We come into this world, we are born. Perhaps we have our set destinies, you know, whatever, subject to our karma, good and bad. Who knows what we did in the past lifetime? If you believe in that theory, you know, maybe, maybe we were supposed to be, were supposed to be those people who were supposed to be hung.

And it's like Guru Maharaj Ji comes and when we look at Guru Maharaj Ji, when we let go to Guru Maharaj Ji, all that changes. The incredible, the most incredible link of devotion is formed. There is nothing more that a devotee can desire. There is nothing more that a devotee can want except Guru Maharaj Ji. Because that's why you are devotee. That's why you are a premie. Guru Maharaj Ji helps. Guru Maharaj Ji gives you that Grace to walk, to talk, to make that effort. And all you have to do is open your heart and accept it. That's mainly our problem. When Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace even knocking at our door we don't accept it. When Guru Maharaj Ji you know, it's like, it's such an incredible feeling when we just even that moment let go to Guru Maharaj Ji. We hold on to so many things.

Every time we hold I mean its just like that example. You know, going in that amusement park once and I was, you know, Marilyn wanted me to come on this, on this strange ride. I think all those rides are really strange and why do you ever, you know, in the sanest notion wanna be dropped all of a sudden 200 feet down so your stomach is in your mouth (distant laughter) and anyway I got into this little, little semi aeroplane I guess and I started to go around and around and around and you could really feel the centrifugal force, you know, and I thought this little unit was just gonna detach and I was going to be flung right across the whole amusement park and so I held on, I held on really, really tight and it's like at that moment, you know, I could have reasoned with myself, it was like, look if this whole unit is going to detach, what makes me think that this bar will still stay at the same place so I can hold on to it. The whole unit will go but I'll still be there. (some laughter) That whole thing is going to fly out, I'm going to fly out and so is the bar going to fly out with it all and it's like already I had made the terrible mistake of getting inside of it. That was all done and finished with and it was like there was no way I could jump out of there even if I wanted to. That was the way that the one way I could have gotten it hurt. You know one time in this one in Disneyland ride you know in Los Angeles. I was and there is this roller coaster and they have this Materhorn roller coaster and what happens is like, you know this is a perfect story of this world, really, you get inside then there's all these people. You get inside these little cars and it all sounds great and all sounds fun. Then you get up and it goes very slowly and slowly and slowly and slowly and slowly it goes up and up and up and it's like a ceiling keeps coming down and down and down and I was going with this Indian premie and all of a sudden he got up, he wanted to get out of there, he didn't want that and I said "Sit down! You gonna hurt yourself!" Because you're not supposed to get up on those things. You get up on those things and that thing starts to go down he just gonna be flung out of there. In the same way you know for me in that little, in that little aeroplane, sitting there you know all holding as tight as I could because I didn't wanna get hurt and it's like first thing I should have done is that's what I wanted is not even sit on it but then that mistake is made that I sit on it. Sit inside of it and then what is what are my alternatives and its like this stage starts going faster and faster and faster and faster and faster, what can you do? And sometimes that, I mean it's just a feeling of desperate helplessness, can't do anything, checkmate! Finished! Try to get out, you're gonna get hurt, you know, if you stay there and that's the whole thing, that's why you wanna get out because you're scared of the whole thing. You don't wanna get hurt again. You don't want that whole unit get detached and throw you out on someone and it's like yet that's an illusion. It's an illusion to be scared of that thing because that's what that thing is created for, to scare you. I mean, what is a roller coaster all about? A simulated feeling of what an aeroplane does. Aeroplane doesn't do that but all of a sudden you know coming like you're gonna fly off that track and all of a sudden it turns and it's like everybody's screaming and everybody's yelling and going upside down and and it's just, that's supposed to be all fun.

In this world you know somehow we end up in this world and it's like that's that but there is a whole purpose beyond that. There is a purpose and there is a beauty and there is something that we can really clutch on to and when we clutch on to this thing, there is an experience, an experience of beauty, experience of love, an incredible experience and when we clutch onto this world there is no experience, there is no experience of beauty. There is no experience of love and there is no experience at all. And so just to let go of all these concepts that we have you know what's gonna happen and what's gonna happen and what's gonna happen and what's gonna happen. Just to let go to Guru Maharaj Ji, just to love Guru Maharaj Ji. That's all a devotee can really ever do is just to love their Guru Maharaj Ji, let Guru Maharaj Ji take care of them. Let Guru Maharaj Ji give them that Grace to have devotion. Let Guru Maharaj Ji give them, you know, that Grace to be a devotee.

You know so many of us what do you think we have done to be even to be able to deserve to be a devotee? Do you remember any single thing that you ever did in your whole sweet life that you deserve to be a devotee? You know in one second the whole life, the whole metabolism of this life is changed around. Instead of another person in this world another being struggling to survive in this world, struggling to be alive in this world. That's no more. To even struggling to be a be? No just to become a devotee. Then all of a sudden everything looks incredible. Everything looks beautiful. Everything is, because everything has a purpose. You are alive and so is everything else. For those people in this world everything is dead because they're dead. They call themselves alive, but where is their life in them? Life's the most incredible thing. If they really had it in them, they would be enjoying that. You know the mercy of Guru Maharaj Ji, the compassion of Guru Maharaj Ji is incredible because one Grace after another Grace after another Grace is given to us. One Grace that we are here. Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace. You know, another Grace that we can become premies. And another Grace that we can always stay premies. What does Guru Maharaj Ji want out of us anyway? You know, what does ,what does a captain expect of a ship? It's very simple. The captain cannot desire his ship to fly. It won't. All our captain wants that ship to do is stay afloat and go in the direction that he wants it to go. To make that effort to go in the direction that we are intended to go. Sometimes we can hide under an umbrella of our excuses. Well, this is what I can't do and this is what I can do and this is what I can do. But you know what we are doing in a sense is defeating the purpose of our existence. In essence, we are defeating the purpose of our existence because everything that we, you know, it's like Guru Maharaj Ji bails us out of one pit and we cannot afford to fall in another one. You know to me, first of all for a devotee. Then OK, there's Knowledge and there's an experience of Knowledge. Well, that's fine. That's OK. That'll be there. The first most very, very important thing is Guru Maharaj Ji. Because for a devotee Guru Maharaj Ji is the way out. Guru Maharaj Ji is the way out of from this world. Guru Maharaj Ji is the way out. Two, that's satisfaction. Guru Maharaj Ji is the way out to that beauty. Guru Maharaj Ji is the way. You know.

What was it? You know, for like a devotee like Hanuman. You know, to him, it was an "OK Ram, now that you have given me Knowledge, ciao, see you later. I tell you what I'll go ahead and fly to Ceylon you know to Lanka and I'll see you when you get there. I'll organise your reception committee. You know, when you get there, you make your bridge. You want to come there, you make your bridge, you do your thing. You've given me the experience of Knowledge. Thank you very much and that's about it. I mean first how many of us perhaps the saga is very much like that.?OK Guru Maharaj Ji, you've given me Knowledge. See you later. What is Knowledge? What is the experience of Knowledge? for a premie? What is an experience of Knowledge? What is Knowledge? Knowledge is, was and always will be. See Knowledge is even present in those beings who don't have it. But do they have any experience of it? Knowledge is present, you know, in a dog for that matter. Knowledge is, is that power that sustains everything. But do we have any experience of it? Does anybody in this world have any experience of it? And that's what we have to understand. Then when Guru Maharaj Ji comes in our life, He is the one who gives us the key. He is the one who opens the lock. He is the one who guides us on that path so that we may have an experience.

You have to understand sitting under your meditation sheets. Who is giving you that experience that you have? For so many of us. It's very simple. It's our effort. Here I am. So now covered in my meditation sheet. Here I am. I am the one who's inverting myself. Going inside to experience Knowledge. Really? Or is it just simply a manifestation of Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace again in your life? What, what keeps us alive in this world? You tell me what can't happen to us? To me? It's I've thought about it so many times. There you are, sitting on the toilet, you know, and there's, you know, your lavatory and there is the whole world. There is everything, you know. Then all of a sudden you turn around and hit the flush button. And this noise is made. The sooner you start sucking in the whole world disappears. Just disintegrates. Nothing. The wall, the sky, the trees, the trailer. Everything disappears and there's only one thing left, it's you and the toilet seat. That's it. Not even the whole toilet. Just the seat you're sitting on. Your legs are dangling because there's nothing underneath you. Nothing. Everything's gone and you can look down as far as you can see. And there's no end. You can look up as far as you can see. And there's no end. What would happen to us? You know, probably turn around and try to flush the toilet again. (laughter)

You know you'd be so scared. So scared. Will again go, you know, that's it. Because all of a sudden the entire world just disappeared nothing is, you know, I mean every, it's hard to imagine it, right because you can look that far in all these three, blah, blah, blah and all of a sudden bang, it's all gone. You can't hear anything. You can't see anything. You can't feel anything. To me, that's possible. That can happen. Without Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace that's the way it is always in our life. This world exists for us, but does it exist for us ?This earth is under our feet but what difference does it make? You know, when they all, you know, it doesn't matter who we are, what we do, one day, wherever we are, there is that moment. I don't know. Just hiccup or whatever happens. Poof. That's it. There is your body, it's lying there. You can't think anymore. You can't feel anymore. You can't touch anymore. You can't see anymore. You can't talk anymore. All is left is the glump of flesh. And then perhaps somebody will take you into a mortuary. Cut you open. Start filling you up with formaldehyde. And perhaps at that point your muscles will reflect. And your leg will go up or you'll sit up or whatever. Sew your lip shut. Sew your eyes shut. Put a lot of make up on you. Take the blueness away of the clotting blood. And you, you know, I mean, it's like, you know, it's really funny because last night I was talking to Michael Donner and I said, "You look really tired, Donner." And he goes, yeah, I haven't been sleeping so good. So what's the matter with you? I just, I'm very restless in a sleeping bag but he can, you know, complain about a sleeping bag now but in a coffin, it's tighter than a, tighter than a sleeping bag. And he isn't going to complain a bit about it. That's it. To me, as the way the people look at it, there are only two parts of this miracle of this life The way the world looks at it. There's only two miracles. Once when you're born. You know, when the doctor holds you up and you get a nice tight slap in the back and you start your day by crying. You can't, you know and that's the stage where you can't see anything. You can't feel anything. You can't do anything. I mean, there you are. Just a little whang, you know, And then you grow and you grow and you grow. I mean, you, you almost from that very day that you were born, you were born to die and that's all the, that's that was the biggest moment in your life and the next biggest moment in your life is when you're going to die. They were the most crucial things. The day you were born and the day you die and that's the way the world understands it. You know that's what they put on your headstone, born in a certain day, kick the bucket certain day. That's it.

After all you have to understand, the idea, the idea of renunciation started a long, long time ago. This is not 1979 or this 20th century invention a long time ago this started the idea of renunciation. because they saw nothing in this world and for those people. I mean people have tried it every every way you can possibly imagine, people try to get to that truth by taking their legs and putting it on their neck and taking the other one and becoming, I mean you you don't even know what they are you know a dog or a chicken or you know, what are they, you know, it's just like completely deform themselves you know, stand upside down. head down legs up, walk on it. People sleep on a bed of nails, people walk on fire. You know it's really incredible. You know there is, these people you know in India they have this one ritual where they have a path, you know they take this path and they fill it with burning coals and you're supposed to walk it and if you walk across of it you walk the path, you see, and you see these people hop on it you know their feet are burning and that's a fact and they're like going "Ooh, aah!" jumping up and down and some of them don't quite make it you know they just step off to the side and put their feet in a nice cold water.

That's it, that's that's their experience, you know, for so many people in this world, God's in a church, in a temple, you know, in a shrine and you go there then you bow down and that's your God in front, you know. I mean look what doesn't happen, you know, people go in all these temples and there's a little idol. and then they take, they bring milk and they take all the milk and put it right over the idol's head. and can you imagine doing that to a living Perfect Master? Bring some milk every time you come see him, you take this big huge thing of milk and pour it right on top of the head you know and it's just like we have taken everything in this world, customised it for our needs, customised it for ourselves and called it the perfection, called it the ultimate way to reach, the ultimate way to get and yet of all these paths, you know, there are people who have renounced everything. Everything, even their clothes, don't wear any clothes, don't carry anything with them, no possessions, nothing. There are people, you know, I don't know just listening to Shri Maharaj Ji's satsang, you know, once and there was, he was just giving this example of this one sadhu once he met who, who would go toilet and whatever would come out, he would change him into sweets and eat it again. And I mean to him, that's the ultimate stage of his perfection. Sometimes he would turn into a lion, sometimes he would turn into something and it was like his ultimate perfection that he he he wanted to ever reach and yet he was not happy in that. And Guru Maharaj Ji comes, you know, it's not like that, you know, it's like there are people who fight their mind and you know how they fight their mind in a very practical day to day level. What they, what they do is every time they feel thirsty, they will go pee pee in a glass and drink it and then they will throw up or not like it and they'll turn around and say "Here you feel thirsty? here it is, drink some more," you know ,every time they feel hungry they do the same thing and they'll throw up or not feel good, you know, and it's like here you want some nice sweets? you want some delicious food? here eat this. The people you know they feel really hot and they feel tired and they'll go sit out in the sun, in the burning hot sun, find a rock, lie down on it, take their clothes off, you know, and, and start walking, you know, if they feel tired, if they feel sleepy, they'll stay up and this is like this whole weird concept of achieving perfectness, a whole weird concept of achieving that. Does Guru Mahara Ji does any of those things. It's just like this whole weird concept of achieving perfectness, a whole weird concept of achieving that. Does Guru Maharaj Ji does any of those things?

You know, isn't it truly like, oh, yeah, okay. You know, it has a big food area over there. You feel hungry eat this, you know? No, but they're preparing wonderful sandwiches there and salads and you know, I don't know, somebody put a Coke machine there. I don't know if there's a coke machine there and I didn't see it, well, but what if it was a Coca-cola bottle of something else in it here. You want Coca-cola have this. Wouldn't that be a wonderful attack on our minds? What is the mind going to have to say about it? All the desires would be gone, you know, in a second you would be set free like an Arti, you know. That's it. You would have no more desires. How many have already you know you want to take a shower. You want to take a cold cold showers like you want to get clean. You want to take a shower here and I mean to see they've even try to warm up the showers.

But that practise of Knowledge that seems so difficult to us. Is it in fact, not the simplest thing? Maharaji doesn't say don't eat food. You can eat food. What if it was the other way around? What if all the scriptures describe that as being the sign of a devotee? We'd be all in a terrible mess. You know. That's it, I mean, what if all tomorrow I said "OK all the initiators. You have to shave off all your hairs. Become bald." Then what? I mean Gurucharanand Ji just just barely got all his hairs back. That he had been shaving for a long, long, long, long time. If I told every all these initiators, including, you know, them so-called by Bai Jis. I mean, here they go out and they buy themselves glasses and you know put a little makeup on and act very, you know, sick or something like that. And all of a sudden, O. K. You know, get rid of all your hairs. You know and all these initiators have suits and wear all these suits and ties and shirts pretty, well dressed. OK, you can't have your suits. All you gotta wear is a big kurta, you know. I mean, first of all, we would have a very steady decline in all our IDP candidates. We'd have tonnes of letters for the withdrawal of their application and even at more more on top of that is the true sign of a devotee was you know like they have all these fraternity groups. You know and you gotta do all these things. Well what if there was a ritual involved like that? You to shave off your half moustaches or shave off half of your hairs. You know, one eyebrow you have to shave off, take the hairs off you know. I, shave off your eyelashes, just cut them ,you know paint yourself blue, you know on one side and green and stay like that for one year and you know just I mean every the possible thing you can imagine, just really weird things like that. Then where would we be? Where would our mind be? You have to understand that with the mind the story is you give it an edge and it will take a mile.

Everything even how I mean look at it how simple in fact this path is and that's not the way it used to be. You know there were, you know the first thing you had to do to if you wanted to receive Knowledge is to move into an ashram. What, what would be the scene then, you know, just move into an ashram. Totally give up everything, surrender, do service every day for years. For years just do service and service and service and service and service and service never to get to see Guru Maharaj Ji, never to listen to Satsang. and you're staying in that ashram. Once you've done that and at that point Guru Maharaj Ji please? Would then turn around so "OK, maybe you can have Knowledge." You know, I mean we would been in bad shapes and yet you look at it ourselves we still somehow find ourselves in bad shapes and you know one of the very simple reason for finding ourselves in the bad shape is because we don't have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. If we have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. if we had the trust in Guru Maharaj Ji then what can budge us. If we had really the faith in Guru Maharaj Ji then where would our mind really be? If we really had faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. If you really loved Guru Maharaj Ji. You know, I mean, yes, you know all the premies love Guru Maharaj Ji. But really, really loved Guru Maharaj Ji. The sincere love. If we really were to be in Guru Maharaj Ji's Agya. So that's the most wonderful story. You have the most incredible thing that can happen to us, to just let go to Guru Maharaj Ji and let him take us over to where he wants to take us. You know we have our little concepts. How Knowledge works and that's not the way it works. We have our little concepts how Guru Maharaj Ji works. That's not the way Guru Maharaj Ji works.

No. Lot of time Shri Maharaj Ji's Guru Maharaj Ji would have these tours set up for himself, going and visiting premies and he would have the whole agenda lined up and everything and he would go from one place to another place and the devotees would be there and their love would be there and their inspiration would be there and he would just stay there for days and all these devotees would be waiting at other place and he would just send word, "No, I'm not coming" and then finally when he had enough of his fill, he would then go over to the next place and stay there for days on end and he would send the word, "Well, I'm not coming." And its like look we cannot ever have concepts of what Guru Maharaj Ji wants for us to do, we cannot have concepts of how its all going to work, what the experience of Knowledge is, how to have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji, how to surrender because those are the things that become our very object. The path of devotion, the path of for a devotee is to completely let themselves be gone to Guru Maharaj Ji, to turn himself over to Guru Maharaj Ji and then there will be a manifestation of Grace. Then there will be a manifestation of love. Then there will be a manifestation of beauty.

It's like to me, again like I was saying yesterday, you see, we all think that we are what we are and yet we are not what we are. We do not you know we appear to be something else than what we really are and all we are filled with is our imperfections, our shortcomings and yet you can see, you know in one way where we have to go is perhaps 180 degrees from the path sometimes that we take and yet you have to understand a very simple thing that Guru Maharaj Ji is compassion and Guru Maharaj Ji has made that path simple for us. Guru Maharaj Ji has made that path easy for us. You know by standing next to a train. If you intend to reach your destination, can you? I mean there's the train when you stand right next to it and the train is bound to where you want to go. But there you're standing just right next to it. Do you think you'll ever get there where you have to go? Is that possible? No. You have to get inside the train, if you get inside the train and then you will go where the train is going. The same exact way just standing as a bystander to this whole thing. This whole love of Guru Maharaj Ji, the Grace of Guru Maharaj Ji. that won't get you any experience, only when you truly become a part of it. Only when you let go and you become a part of it. When you enter that train, then truly and sincerely you can get to where you have to go. Having concepts about how it works isn't the thing. No. I mean I guess there're premies here who have all sorts of different concepts about how Knowledge works. To some some of you you know who have been around for 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 years you have a completely different concept. For those who haven't even received Knowledge yet, it's a completely different thing. And for those who have just received Knowledge it's a completely different thing. And yet it doesn't make any difference because your concepts isn't what's gonna do it, having faith in your concept, having trust in your concept following that, just forget it. Pause it all, have faith in Guru Maharaj Ji, have trust in Guru Maharaj Ji and follow Guru Maharaj Ji and Guru Maharaj Ji will take you where you have to.

We're like these people you know every time you wanna take a taxi we stand in front of it because we think that the grill of the car is its mouth you know and we maybe we can say something to it. So every time we see a fast taxi going somewhere you stick our head out to try to tell it to please stop. That's not the way it works. You get hit by it. You know it's like that one joke you know, how do you tell happy crazy people? You know how do you tell a happy crazy motorcyclist when it's like by the teeth between, in the bugs between its teeth and this happy crazy motorcycles goes the smiles. I don't know what for because at that point you should keep your mouth shut when it smiles all the, all the bugs, it cut in between the two. Isn't that our case? You know, they can tell us by having all the concepts sticking out of your ears. All the concepts ticking out of her noses. Concepts sticking out of everywhere. Concept about everything else. For so many people you know, it's like there's this whole Hans Jayanti site and, you know, that was what's happening in the first day. You know, Julian got up and so many initiators got up and talked about this whole Hans Jaynti site. To me, this place doesn't even exist. It's every individual premies, the only people who exist. That's it, cause that's the most important thing. It isn't that what is. I mean, this doesn't signify anything to me at all. This is not a nightmare for me. I have to admit that Julian. Its not a nightmare for me. To me, it's incredibly beautiful because I haven't, I've driven around in Miami, and I've driven around in Los Angeles, and I've driven around here. And there is a vast difference, you know. And because there is that love but I cannot for the benefit of anybody take this whole place as a big square piece of section and say, "OK, now I'm going to give Satsang to this whole place." No, Satsang is still to every individual who's sitting here. Guru Maharaj Ji's love doesn't pour out as a mess. It doesn't Guru Maharaj Ji's love is not like these speakers, you know, just spray it on everybody. But to every individual, because every individual has that choice, has that option to reject Guru Maharaj Ji's love but also the most important to accept Guru Maharaj Ji's love. The path of devotion is not sophisticated by any means. It's simple. It's simpler than simpler than simple. It's easy because Guru Maharaj Ji is the road. Guru Maharaj Ji is the vehicle. Guru Maharaj Ji is the engine. Guru Maharaj Ji is that power, all you have to do is launch yourself to Guru Maharaj Ji and that's it. And Guru Maharaj Ji will take you to that destination. How simple can you get? But look at it. I mean, that's the fact. That's the fact that if you attach ourselves to Guru Maharaj Ji, then Guru Maharaj Ji will take us. If our faith and trust is in Guru Maharaj Ji, then Guru Maharaj Ji will take us. But what do we have our faith and trust in? Is every moment really alive with Guru Maharaj Ji in our lives? No. Our faith and trust goes in every little thing that we do. Perhaps even if it's driving the cars and our faith and trust is in that car, not in Guru Maharaj Ji. You're driving. You know you're walking along, your faith and trust is somewhere else. Not in Guru Maharaj Ji. Your understanding and thought is somewhere else. Not in Guru Maharaj Ji. Not in this Knowledge. You are submerged. True, but with something else. You are submerged in that mind in that ego. Not in the Guru Maharaj Ji, it's simple. It's very, very simple. It has been. It's got to take the plug from one place where it's been for such a long time. Pull it out and plug it and plug it into Guru Maharaj Ji. That's it. That's how simple it is. That'll do it, every time.

Look, there are shastras that can tell you how to go about it. Forget it. You know, there are a lot of scriptures that will tell you how to go about it. Just lay them aside. And then there is all your concepts that tell you how to do it. Forget it. Lay them aside. Yes. At the peak. If we want to make it sophisticated, perhaps that's the way to go. It's constant dedication. You know, surrender all those things. No, just not surrendering to your concepts. That's what you, I mean, if you believe in a concept, then that's what you have to surrender to. You cannot surrender to the actual fact. You know if sometimes an initiator gets up and starts to give satsang and it's like, yes, we want to believe what he's saying. Sometimes instead of believing what he's saying, we start to believe in him. And when we start to believe in the initiator, what good is that going to do us?

You know, it's like there's that joke, you know, why do some dogs have flat faces? And the answer is because they chase parked cars. And sometimes I feel that's the story that applies to everyone of us. We start to believe in the initiator. What's the initiator? It's a parked car. We're going to get a flat face. That initiator isn't going up anywhere. He tries, he will, if he doesn't try, he won't. And it's like, okay, there's all this satsang that comes out. But to me, that satsang is only satsang if it is satsang, otherwise it's all a philosophy with a lot of good words put together. But truly when all that is taken away and the attention is only placed in Guru Maharaj Ji, then, then it will happen. Then it can sincerely happen. Then it can happen in your individual lives.

You know it's like sitting in front and looking at this whole stage and every time it comes to Guru Maharaj Ji you close your eyes, pass on and look at something else. And every time you know there's only one thing that Guru Maharaj Ji can ask as a question to any premies, "Why do you make so many obstacles for yourself?" Come to me. Give me that love and I will return your love. I will give you that love. Is there any boundaries? Is there any limit on the love that Guru Maharaj Ji showers upon us? And yet what have what do we do to deserve all that love? It's not sympathy, you know, that Guru Maharaj Ji gives us. How can Guru Maharaj Ji even have sympathy on us because they all got two options. Come in Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace and it's wonderful. Stay out in this world and that's miserable. It's horrible. And so it's like it's not a matter of even sympathy. Guru Maharaj Ji has so much to give everyone of us as premies. We have no idea and don't have any idea about it either. Where Guru Maharaj Ji's world is, do we know where Guru Maharaj Ji's world is? This isn't Guru Maharaj Ji's world? And in one sense and I agree with Julian. I have to admit, in one sense, this is a nightmare because if your concept is attached to this place, then you've got a concept. And for every concept, every concept is a nightmare. I mean, what is this place? You know, the Joe Anctil's a nightmare. I called him there this morning and he wasn't here. He was at the finance trailer. He's probably having nightmares. For Jim Lucoff, this place is probably a nightmare. The hot water doesn't work. The toilets keep leaking up, you know. I mean, when we get involved in our concept, of course, this place is terrible. This place is horrible. It isn't worth beans. It's lowland. It's full of marsh. You know, next year, we won't have water if we try to have the property, you know, the guy who owns the land, who's got the well doesn't want to, you know, give us water rights. And it's like, what is going to happen next year? Maybe by Guru Maharaj Ji's Grace, all our effort, you know, maybe we'll have a place. There is one place that some premies found you know. It's out over Cuba, Havana. (laughter and applause) It's further south from here. You know it's closer. It's in the middle of 2 international airports and so on and so it sounds pretty wonderful and perhaps you know we get into that place, you know fix it up and we have our Hans Jayanti, Holi, Guru Puja whatever but even still that can be still a concept and that will always stay a concept what's going to happen and we're not going to listen to Guru Maharaj Ji, if we're not going to open ourselves up to Guru Maharaj Ji's love.

I didn't have to try. I didn't have to try do anything. I remember that every time, I mean there would be so many times that I sit down and start thinking about Knowledge and every time I would start thinking about Knowledge I would always reach to a conclusion and every time I'd always reach to a conclusion I would look back or turn around to go back to the experience of Knowledge and it wouldn't be there. Because walk me right out there and it was just like I finally learned one simple thing. It's don't be a sucker and the thoughts would come and it's a very simple thing. Guru Maharaj Ji. mind. It starts to perk up. Guru Maharaj Ji, not like a mantra but in the heart to know that's ultimate. Every time you know I had some, there was something that really wanted to screw me away from this experience of Knowledge. Guru Maharaj Ji. Not even to me it was like okay, yes, that explains but to me the most ultimate experience in my life became Guru Maharaj Ji. Not even Knowledge.

And when I became Guru Maharaj Ji, it was so beautiful because I could attach myself to that experience because Guru Maharaj Ji was in this world. Guru Maharaj Ji was there and I remembered every experience of standing in front of him and experiencing a stage of mindlessness where you even can call upon the mind as loud as you want but it is not there. A stage of where a future doesn't matter. Past doesn't matter and you're definitely not in the present, you know, I think that's what the stage is called ecstasy, an incredible bliss and why can't it be very simply like that for us. And it can be if we make that effort, it can be if we try and try. I mean what do we have to try after all I know what does trying mean? What do we have to do? And it's like just to let go of our ideas, our fancy high faluting ideas, you know, of what everything has to happen or what everything is all about. We have to just stop becoming our own masters. We have to stop becoming our own gurus and then it's beautiful. There's no bothers. There's no worries. There is no problems. Problems come and as they come they go, they don't stay there. You know most of all what is Guru Maharaj Ji which is constant becomes even more constant. The experience keeps growing on and on and on and more that experience grows, more the experience of Knowledge becomes alive. More this life becomes real and more you start to lose the essence of craziness and submerge in the essence of that beauty in the essence of Guru Maharaj Ji. It is. It is definitely a lot simpler. You see because mind doesn't want us to believe it's simple. Mind wants to thank its impossible. It can never be done. You know and I just remember you know there was one of the initiators who got up and said "Yeah Guru Maharaj Ji, it was Joan Apter, Guru Maharaj Ji as a foe, you know, the ???, no mind doesn't from Guru Maharaj Ji's well, this, that's not true. Mind does got nothing to do with Guru Maharaj Ji. it never, it never is there when Guru Maharaj Ji is there. It never picks a fight with Guru Maharaj Ji. Mind is your fault, not Guru Maharaj Ji's. It's the one, you are the sucker that keeps falling for the mind. You are the being that mind really turns over and that's where a small barrier has to be placed. Let that mind go all the way out and slam the door shut and that's it. Perhaps that's how simple it is or if you can't do that leave the room. Guru Maharaj Ji will find you another one. You know, leave that room. Poor mind is so much, so present, and you definitely don't have to be involved in saying "Well okay mind you are hungry. You know here it is, eat this. You're thirsty, here it is, you know drink this.

You wanna be clean. You jump in a cesspool. You don't have to do any of that. But steer away from that mind towards Guru Maharaj Ji and you know the thing is, the easiest part is steer away, sure steer away where? not you don't even have to steal away, just steer directly towards Guru Maharaj Ji, that's all, and automatically you will be steering away from the power of this mind, from the craziness of this mind and you know the agony of the whole thing is we keep going back and we keep listening to our mind again and again and the mind keeps telling us "No no no can't can't can't. We cannot make the effort. We do not know what the effort is. We cannot understand what the effort is. We do not understand Knowledge." But if we just really let Guru Maharaj Ji be present in our lives, that will all change. That will all change in a moment. That will all change just, just like that, because where Guru Maharaj Ji's presence is, you know Guru Maharaj Ji is like the sun, when the sun comes out all the darkness disappears, the existence of darkness is no more. The darkness doesn't really exist. And it's just that absence of the sun that brings the darkness.

Our little problems that we make up. You know it's like that story is like, you know, somebody went up to the sun and said "You know darkness always supercedes you, everywhere you go and you leave, darkness engulfs. Why don't you have it out with the darkness so that darkness will never ever be?" And the sun said "What darkness? Show me the darkness and I'll fight it. I don't even know what a darkness is" and this sets the same thing with Guru Maharaj Ji and my little problem and Guru Maharaj Ji says "Where is your little problem?" and you do try to find your little problem but it doesn't really exist. Standing in front of Guru Maharaj Ji, really, I mean if I was to driving around and stop my jeep and called anyone of you, roll down our window and said "Tell me your problem. What are you gonna tell me?"A toilet doesn't fly, a zipper is on zip up or you know I got rip in my pants. What are you gonna tell me? "My tent's too cold." What? Can you find your problem? You know what your problem is? Think about it. I mean, you don't think about it. Don't ever do that. But anyway, try to explore within yourself. You can find your problem but you so scared about, so afraid of, you know, more but can't make effort because you have this intense problem. Where is it? What is it? What can't you do? You have had the experience of Knowledge. You are a devotee of Guru Maharaj Ji. In your little way you try. Sure. What's the problem? There's no problem. And yet after I leave the stage you go back to your tents, all night long, there's gonna be a problem. And I can come again tomorrow and ask you, what your problem is? And you still won't know what your problem is. And yet all night long it'll haunt you. And I bet you right now there's premies sitting here thinking, what their problem is and they can't find their problem. You know. Yes. You may have weaknesses or weaknesses into your problem. You're only human. You know, it's like Cliff, you know, I was, I told him yesterday about the Elan Vital mistake. You know instead of saying 75 it says 79 so I called them this morning and I just its clear. Are you tired or something you say Well, isn't feeling so good. So why aren't you feeling so good? So well all those mistakes and technical mistakes and all that I said "You're not a Perfect Master, he's not a Perfect Master. You should look at it. You should frame his mistake, you know, so you can tell himself that he really needs Guru Maharaj Ji in his life. You know we all make mistakes, even John Hampton makes mistakes, you know, everybody makes mistakes. The only thing we gotta watch first we don't make the mistake. That's all. If you make the mistake then we've all had it, then we've got a lot of problems but so far Guru Maharaj Ji is really alive in our lives, we don't have a problem. I mean even if all the tents fall down. You know. We don't have a problem. It doesn't matter.

You know, it was like, you know there was this whole Hurricane Festival that happened here. It was incredible. It was incredible. It was incredible afterwards and that's the sad part about it, you know and it was like there're all these premies who are supposed to come to Miami, you know, and have it in this hurricane was heading out. And it's just like, so many times, that's exactly what happens everywhere in our lives. You know, there's this hurricane heading out and we all, you know, it's like, like, we can't have the program. So everybody rushed over here. You know, we got all the premies over here, built a little stage. There was a little program. I couldn't see one single premie sitting out there, you know and anyway, it was just beautiful, because you could feel the premies. And I went back and I had my dinner and I was about ready to go to sleep when it occurred to me. So wait a minute. If that hurricane is going to come to Miami, it's coming this way too, and it'll be ??? it's already got 100 miles of, it's 100 miles long and it'll be nothing for it to hit here anywhere So it's like, if it hits and it was coming, it was coming. It was coming. It was coming and, and that was the consciousness. It was coming. It was coming. It was coming. It was coming. You know, Hurricane, Hurricane, Hurricane, you know, Hurricane David. And it was like the hotels or the ???ans or this and that was, you know, it was all alive and it was like then I said, "Okay, why don't we have Darshan tonight? Because we can have Darshan tonight and all the premies can have Darshan, go back home and we can beat the hurricane. And it's like Darshan starting was really beautiful. You know, it was night time. It's incredible. Whatever it was worth, before, it was just really beautiful. We had to die. Shannon went back in the next morning. Sure enough, you know, all the hurricane was just really tearing up, came through here, raining and messy. And it was just like, I realised that what is the significance of a hurricane? And you can get so involved in a hurricane that completely lose the focus of Guru Maharaj Ji and premies in Satsang and Dashan. And what possibly can that hurricane do? Oh, what possibly can that hurricane do? That's fine. And I was like, we can forget, we just gotta let go of all that and just remember one thing, that's just that love premies to Guru Maharaj Ji and Guru Maharaj Ji's love to premies.

And within that of course there is everything that. Within that, it's complete. Within that, it's all perfect and that's what we've got to remember. Let's not let this mind come in and tell us what everything is wrong with us. What can be wrong with us? And our mind comes and tell us how unlucky you are, no you're not unlucky, you're the luckiest person in this room because you have Guru Maharaj Ji. If a devotee of Guru Maharaj Ji's unlucky then the whole world is doomed as of right now because then who is lucky? They're fortunate. Who is fortunate? Only the devotee of Guru Maharaj Ji's, you know, so just don't try to sit there and think about your problem, but if you're invited enough, it'll come. It lives away, away from here but it'll come and yet it still doesn't exist, in fact, it still doesn't exist. So just let go. What are you holding onto? Look at it. It's full of a lot of junk which you're holding on to and if you even go a little bit, that's a start. That's pretty good. Surprise. Thank you very much.