Gok, Maharaji is NOT the one who gave you your good life, YOU did. You brought YOURSELF from a crazy life to a sensible life. You did that, not Maharaji.I'm not confused, the exes who post here are not confused, you are the only in confusion here. There's a very good reason for this and I think you know what it is.
You can keep your experience, you made it and it's yours. It has nothing to do with that funny little baffling Indian man. Get over it. You are almost there. Persevere in getting to the your own truth. You deserve it and so does your family.