I agree that I got manuevered into a position but I let it happen. I am a bit too honest on this board. I admitted to all, and to premies, that I too made mistakes in Rawats name. Premies pretend I was alone in that or that it was not encouraged. I was very young and had spent my entire teen years in the cult, it was my "one reality".

I really don't think I am giving Randy any benefit of a doubt. I never have thought he is anything but lying. And maybe, when a premie is in his 50's instead of his '20s the mind control is different....but I think they are still somewhat victims. We have seen how very hard it is here when premies realize Rawat is a fraud, I think it is harder after 30 years to admit you were fooled than 5 or 10.