"Either way, every person who knew about this and didn't go to the police cannot point the finger at anyone else"

Well, I do have a lot of guilt about that. I was 15 after all. I have certainly spent a great deal of time regretting that I trusted M to do something in my ignorance.  But I am not covering up how I stupidly handled what had happened.  However, I do not think you are so dense as to not see the connection between the car accident behavior and Jagdeo. In one case, he has to deal with the reprecussions of an accident, and the truth would hurt him, Rawat, so he covers it up. In the second, he has a mahatma sexually abusing children, and he covers when he heard about it and what he did up, for much the same reasons.

Please explain to me, since you do believe me, how it is that Judy ( Marolyn's midwife not exactly an outsider, in on the most personal experience in the family - birth of the children ) would have come back to me with " Mahaharaj Ji said he had already heard about this, and is glad it is not a new incident" that is a VERY peculiar response and one that would have been truly bizarre for her to make if there was no truth to it. Can you give me a reasonable explanation for that other than that Rawat knew? When I told Randy about this, he was spending a lot of time at the residence. It would not have been reasonable to think he would have passed it up channels. But lets say he did. Well, he must have passed it on VERY well, well enough that they recognized they were getting a second complaint from the same person, and happened upon someone who knew about Jagdeo and the incident well enough to recognize it as the same complaint, and then, decided to keep it secret from Rawat? Why? Why would they do that? And what are the odds? Unless most of the people around Rawat knew and they all decided to keep it from him, hey and Dettmers and Donner as well???? I too was afraid Randy may have watered it down, why was Jagdeo still around after all? It was uncharacteristic , they usually were sent to India  ( no, I was NOT talking about consensual sex, there was a Mahatma P who repeated raped premie women and another T? who molested little boys both sent to India ). So Randy watered it down, well Judy should have fixed that, they both watered it down, what are the odds?

This is what I think probably happened. I think the evidence is fairly obvious that Rawat knew. Why on earth would the premies around Rawat keep such a thing from Rawat? There were other reports too, even besides the Charnanand one from A's dad. I think Rawat, in the 70's, for some reason kept Jagdeo. Maybe Jagdeo begged to stay in such a convincing way Rawat kept him, maybe he denied it, maybe he admitted it and begged forgiveness and promised to stop. Maybe Rawat believed Jagdeo could stop. One person remembers that she heard there was a guard on Jagdeo. Maybe that was indeed Rawats solution along with a "never again".. I think that sometime in the 90's there was another report, and that was the last straw, and he was finally packed off to the ashram in India. Where he remained until questioned by Deepak. The scary thing is that another ex-premie, while a devout premie in India, remembers a young girl crying and begging not to have to go into Jagdeo's room to do service, this is prior to the Deepak questioning. Is that a coincidence too?

How M handled the cyclist and Jagdeo are really the same. He was caught in a trap, and he covered up what happened to protect himself. He is a coward. He let a premie take the rap for the cyclist, and he is would rather make Randy and Judy live with this lie as well as anyone else involved, and he certainly seems to have no problem with letting me get called a liar or crazy. Hey he didn't even stop premies from bashing another women who reported this. Rawat covers his ass, and over people pay for it. He is a coward.

I have tried to be very honest with you, can you be honest with me, and yourself most of all, about these issues?