Hi San,

I agree it's very sad and pathetic.

One thing about those comments by Bob Mishler that stands out and also ties into the last training sessions John posted is that Bob makes it quite clear that Rawat has always had a distinct stage persona that completely fooled the premies.

I would never have guessed that Maharaji was so unhappy and dysfunctional and greedy. Would you?   I never would have suspected it in 1979 when I was around him nearly every day!  He's an excellent actor.

There's something about people who have a need to collect things that make them temporarily happy and it's not necessarily about wealthy people either.  That desire to collect things is because they are not feeling loved in their lives and need is to continuously acquire things in order to fill up the gap.  There's essentially nothing wrong with wanting to have material things in one's life, but if it's done over and over in an attempt to feel love, I find it enormously ironic that "our" Maharaji has been doing that from such a young age and through his adult life, too.

It amazes me that so many thousands and thousands of us premies loved Maharaji so much, but the love we had for him wasn't doing anything for him.  He has had a beautiful, loving wife, and yet he berated her and cheated on her.  If he felt so unhappy and so unloved he could have walked off of his stage and gone home to India.  But he chose to stay and perpetuate the myth of being someone who can give real peace and love to anyone who wants it.

Cynthia