"The Essen prog in 1975, to just pick one from that decade, was like nothing so much as a Nuremburg Rally, but without the pin sharp organisation. I remember thinking as much at the time, as the massed thousands bellowed out Bhole Shri Satgurudev Maharaj Ki Jai, over & over again. Of course I 'rationalised' that it was probably ok, because Guru Maharaj Ji was God, & not Hitler."

Yes, I can see that comparison Pat...shudder....I was spacing out in 1975 and missed that event but somebody who lives in my town was seriously injured in a road accident on the way there. She hasn't been a premie for years and years but never fully recovered from the injuries she sustained. 

As for my "growth" ..... I suppose I'm just a bad student and always end up doing things my own way.