As it happens I still have friends who 'believe'....I hesitate to say are still cult members, because they don't support the org in any way except by attending Rawatfests when they happen in England, & then not every time. Also, they never ever talk about heem amongst themselves, not even after a blast of darshan. Apart from general comments, such as one would hear from any crowd coming out of a theatre, like, 'wasn't that fantastic', the main thing is getting a table big enough to hold all the members of the impromptu reunion party which forms after the event.

I'd much rather see them now, & do occasionally, under normal circumstances. 'Them' means the 2 or 3 real friends, the others I'm slightly sad about,but if never seeing them again means I don't have to sit through another Bollixshwar show either, then I can live with that.