Be happy Ghi and don't spent too much energy on rationalizing your doubts away........love ..............wolfie

Hi Wolfie, thanks for the kind note. If your old premie friends are happy too, as you are, then there shouldn't be anything to feel sorry about.  Your free, I'm free, we're all free...how wonderful.   The cultish tendencies, that you and I and many react too, certainly can inhibit the flight into freedom.  I sincerely feel that one can enjoy Maharaji, his Knowledge and reject the cult.  Cult(ure) is a social phenonomen, not taught by Maharaji.  It's the people around him, under him, or wherever than perpetuate this alienating behavior.  At the core of it all, Knowlege is truly independent. once practiced, and hearing Maharaji for who is he is, what he offers, really opens up some new vistas. Love to you too, Ghi