John’s "forgiveness" post is quite consistent with his Journey:

"Of necessity, we ex-premies are caught in the gap between:

1.  Not wanting to dedicate the second half of our lives to tearing down the idol we spent the first half building up and

2.  The need to process what we have to process.

But premies should know that part of the anger ex-premies feel is for ourselves. On the one hand we're outraged at the breathtaking lies we were told. On the other, what we're also saying - tho we're usually a bit shy to spell it out - is that we believed them.

Sadly, most of us were just kids, and didn't know any better. It has been said that because we were manipulated and indoctrinated, it is 100% M's fault - and none of our own. But the logical end to that argument is that M himself - just about the youngest and most comprehensive cult victim of all - is entirely blameless.”

Well said John and enjoy the second half of your life.