I did manage to post something, but it seems like it gone now.  I guess maybe I was dreaming that I had a long honest forthright discussion with catweasel.

Anyway, I guess I feel beaten down too and I certainly have an idea of how it is for you.  And I know that Maharaji would really love to put the screws to me like he did to you.

You said something about dehumanizing Maharaji.  Well, maybe it's not the best way to look at it, but he started it.  What is calling us "rotten vegetables" or "a mirror shattered into a million pieces" or "unlit matches".  He dehumanized us from day one.

Hang in there and keep trucking.  Hopefully, something will work out for you.

P.S. I do see that someone has saved my post over on the Unmentionable Forum.