John,

I hope you get better,  get happy and have a grand time in your life, for you, your family and everything you love and care about.  You really do deserve it you know.  I've never met you personally, but I know you to be a decent, loving, caring, intelligent and talented person and you do not deserve what happened to you.  We all make mistakes in life, and you come a long way by admitting and trying to atone for yours.  That is a lot more than you can say for many other people who never admit mistakes, no matter how much damage they cause.

All I can say John, is that I just cannot imagine the hell you have been through or what the hell they did to you, but I just hope things get better.

Sometimes there is nothing you can say except things suck.  And what happened to you really sucks, whoever is responsible for it.

Peace and love kiddo,

Joe