You also made a legal tactical error in that post that I wont mention in public, but hopefully it wont come back to haunt you.

Look, aside from your money stress, what was done?
If rawat was flush with cash, this computer info would not have sparked a court issue like it has.
Innocent you were when you were enshared in rawats lies.
And they were lies.
The idea of decision is false. You were tricked with partial info. Info rawat hid from us all. How possibly can the idea stand that this was all your "choice"?
Choice could only be used by you like this IF
IF you had not been lied to so deeply and so long by a true deciever.
IF you didnt have the truth in hand, and it was hidden from you, how possibly can you have --choice--?
You cannot.

You might be trying for sincerity here, and contrition, but sorry, you dont qualify as someone who is in a position to claim you made a --choice--.

The decieved are not guilty of choice.
How typical your post is of a child who is molested finding a way to blame himself.
Sorry, the apology is false.
False because you cannot make it.
Your idea of -harm- you caused is false, and while this may help you placate a narcissist, the truth is that he is a deciever, and you, like the rest of us who have had our lives ruined by rawat, first want his hooks of torment removed.
SO, if this post helps you accomplish that, fine. Waving money and an apology in front of the demon may work.

But in time, you will have a whole different perspective.
By the way, do not smoke pot. Ever. It twists the view.