It was interesting to read of your intuitive experiences - when I was 12 we moved into the country and I was left to board at my old school in London.  One day I was crying and couldn't stop and I ended up with matron and she was asking me what's wrong and finally I blurted out I was scared my mother was going to die.  It surprised me as much as the matron.

I had had a letter from home and we decided I was homesick which seemed to make sense at the time, tho I usually liked getting her letters.  and it was in fact decades before my mother would actually die but in retrospect I can see, from what was in the letter that my father would not have liked what she was doing and I probably felt her underlying fear when she wasn't aware she was feeling scared herself, as I was to witness happening later on in life. 

At 12 years old all I could do was sob uncontrollably and finally blurt out that I was scared she was going to die, no way I could do anything else, even to ask for a phone call would have been way beyond me even to think of, let alone enact.  all I could think was it was nice of the matron to be gentle with me and maybe I'd be able to get to sleep now.

you are quite right - 12 years old is 12 years old.  I am very sorry for you that you lost your dad when you did.  xox