Well, here's the rub for me:� I continue to meditate on occasion using these techniques and I wouldn't be doing so unless I gained a sense of well-being doing so.� Naturally, I have nothing against humanity doing whatever if it feels good and doesn't harm anyone.� The harm is when a deluded and/or possibly megalomaniacal leader abuses his/her position by demanding absolute fealty in return.

In my mind Rawat has abused whatever goodwill was extended by me to him in return for the techniques.� He ascribed a metaphysical�significance to "knowledge" that was/is simply not warranted.� Feeling at peace does not equate to spiritual liberation or guru subservience and all of the Hindu concepts he has been�complicit in exporting around the world.� He demanded a surrender and devotion to him personally which was a deeply troubling chapter in my life.

Hilltop's posting of the published speeches of Maharaji/Rawat make it abundantly clear (again and again) that Rawat alone is responsible for all the wack concepts surrounding the simple techniques.� Any mental and emotional abuse arising from these concepts can therefore be placed quite rightly at Rawat's feet.� Moreover, Rawat alluding to being Krishna, Lord, Perfect Master, God, greater that God, all that crazy stuff was not a cultural misunderstanding but a severely deluded attempt to solicit our devotion and perpetuate a mythical belief system.� Rawat, in the Essen Coordinators meeting, also makes clear that all decisions are made by him not by his officials.� Therefore it is Rawat alone who can be blamed for all of the misguided propogation campaigns, fund-raising campaigns, no chit-chat directives and the like.

While Rawat and his organizations have belatedly learned a thing or two in terms of public relations and presentation over the years (as have many other cults) the fact remains that he has refused to be accountable for his�direction and decisions or otherwise accept responsibility for any harm arising as a consequence.� Just the opposite - he and his organizations have embarked on a long-standing campaign to destroy, spin and revise his history.��Therefore, one can only conclude that Rawat is responsible for this deception as well.