I think you're reading far too much into what I posted. We have evidence that Rawat was often unhappy and frightened in his childhood because he said so in times when he was sitting in the Kissimmee afternoon sun and relaxing as well as other times. His situation was pretty well unique and there were influences we cannot know.
I am saying on the evidence of another talk he had a few years ago he never believed the whole Prefect Master shtick because he says so. That is all.
I have edited the conversation to show the important point. TF is Tim Freke a New Age philosopher, by 'here' he means the West:
TF: I guess the question I want to is like when I was watching some videos from that time, when I was reading, after I read your book and looking at the difference. Thinking that's interesting, that journey that you've made, its a huge journey. At that time did you believe your own hype or not? ... I mean did about the you know the the whole Perfect Master and all the the Lord of the Universe
PR: Look, I had to go to school every day.
TF: No, I mean when you were here, here, when you were here
PR: No no, but in India too. I was already hailed a Perfect Master and I have to go to school and I was no Perfect Master in school so already this duality existed where you could be and you couldn't be so I come out, I come home, I'm not a Perfect Master. My mother is telling me, you didn't do this, you didn't do this, do this, do this. I go in on weekends or on school holidays out there and there's thousands of people cheering and going "Yay yeah yeah of course you are" and I was like well which one is it? Is it that one? or is it that one? See, and I realized I have to be me. I wasn't a student nor I was the Perfect Master.
So I'm saying that Prem is simply a boy who doesn't believe what people are saying about him but is going along for the ride and playing the role because of what it can bring him and the alternatives. That is not unusual, what is unusual is what people believe about him and the situation he was in.
