Kim O'Leary - Threatens to Sue for Misrepresentaion

Kim O'Leary has threatened to sue the writer of this site for misreprentation. I have publicised her role as the most important singer/songwriter involved in Prem Rawat's Divine Light Mission and Elan Vital cults. I have written that she was a talented song-writer and ballad singer - sometimes a bit off-key in uptempo songs and lacking in that extra oomph for rock. I recall her singing in satsang meetings in Australia as early as 1973. I have used as evidence of these claims that she wrote songs, sang and recorded them on at least 13 professionally recorded and distributed audio tapes and CDs for sale. She performed in or had her songs used on the soundtracks of at least 16 videos or DVDs publicly distributed by Rawat's organisations. These were all productions of organisations and companies associated with Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji aka Maharaji. She may wish to have her public involvement with Rawat hidden but her public role and her contribution to the success of Prem Rawat's hold over his followers was so important it goes against the public interest not to expose it. Her role was not insignificant and without it being written about no understanding of Rawat's career is really possible. One of the main reasons (IMHO) that Rawat kept a core of devoted followers was her songs and the songs of few other "premies."

For 20 years Prem Rawat claimed he was the Incarnation of God, the Perfect Master and Lord of the Universe who demanded worship. He claimed He could bring World Peace and peace and bliss in the hearts of His followers through His Divine Grace if they obeyed him and surrendered to Him. Kim O'Leary's lyrics were embedded in her Master's teachings and theology though they were somewhat short on the bliss and definitely leaned towards the longing, fear of abandonment and abasement but always wrote of His divinity. Prem Rawat was the Giver of Her Soul.

You Are My Perfect Master
The answer to my every question always comes from you, You are the giver and the keeper of my soul, The answer to my every question always comes from you

Wild Night
Wild night let me discover your end, Let me go you must abandon me, I'm wounded by you fire, I need redirection, sweet correction, And love to take me higher

How Can I Ever Stop Loving You
Your voice is just like music to my ears, Singing to me of all the real things my heart longs to hear, Bringing to me the perfect love to wash away my fears, Taking me home, taking me home

Always There
And I know that you're the only one, That walks upon this earth, Than can teach the people how to live in peace, Cause you reveal the source of all the love I ever wanted

What Have You Done To Me
What have You done to me? All I can do is hold onto each drop of Your Grace, What have You done to me? I feel like Your baby I feel like Your mother, And I feel like it's time to surrender

Maharaji I am bound to You
Maharaji I am bound to You, In love and devotion, You have saved me, Really from the deepest coldest ocean
Maharaji I am lost without You, Afraid to doubt You, Too in love to turn away, Maharaji You are the only one who loves me, Regardless of my imperfections

Oasis Of Love
If I should ever lose sight of You, Please find a way to open my eyes again, Fell into a heavy dream a long time ago, God only knows the kind of shape it got me in

When Rawat encouraged a more Indian and devotional from of worship in the 1980s, O'Leary responded with new songs:

Leaving Your Lotus Feet
Leaving Your Lotus Feet, Oh where would I go? Who else has the Holy Name to purify me? Who else loves the weary and the weak?
Who else the power to free me from Maya? Who else showers such a love so sweet? I am yours Oh Lord, my Guru Maharaj Ji, Please make my surrender complete

Apani Hasti
Those who lose themselves into your Lotus Feet, They please You, Oh my Lord with their surrender complete
Even though hardships, poverty and troubles come to them, They are welcomed as gifts from your Holy Lotus Feet

When Rawat demanded all materials demonstrating Indian and devotional forms of worship be destroyed and kept secret
O'Leary responded with new songs that were uncontroversial and never mentioned His name:

True Love
I want to dream the highest dream, Where my heart can fly, Far away far away, Through the endless sky

Find the Endless love Love
Find the endless love inside of you, It's there inside your heart, Right inside your heart, Find the endless love inside of you

Caught in the Magic
Oh caught in the magic again, Just for a moment, Lost in the magic again, Where heavenly music, Is back in my heart again

I Need to Feel It
Contemplation, I've been thinking tonight about my life and I need to feel it, I need to feel it
Life carries on, I need to go where it goes, I need to see what it shows

Of course, all the people who'd been listening to her songs for years knew exactly what the subtext was. Her behaviour is caused by Rawat's ongoing wish to attract new recruits to his cult, by stealth. O'Leary knows this just as all long-term "premies" or People With Knowledge as they call themselves do. When she left her position in the cult there was no onus on her to talk about her years as a Cult Diva but she tried to keep it secret through lies and false biographies. Writing a self-help book in which she talks about her years of crippling anxiety without mentioning that she was a close devotee of Rawat's who claimed to teach meditation techniques that produce peace and bliss takes this whitewashing a further step into deceit. Of course, it is not illegal to try to hide parts of your life, even when they are the most important parts of your life but similarly it is not illegal to reveal that deceit. It makes one wonder why she is so determined to hide what she was doing for 30 years.

What was the result of those decades worshipping Prem Rawat: Years of Anxiety and Therapy

O'Leary has written a Self Help book drawn on her own life of decades of crippling anxiety and years of therapy despite performing at Rawat's speeches and being one of the young people who flocked to His feet to bring Peace to the World in the 1970s. Prem Rawat's teachings promote a Catch 22 situation, he assures his devoteees that they could and should experience an enlightenment realization by meditating on His Knowledge and worshipping Him and if they don't it's all their own fault. Pre-publication testimonials to her book by friends and associates stress the positive include "This book is a practical how-to guide for managing anxiety, drawn from a rich life of trial and error," "Kim gives autobiographical snippets to validate the often isolating feelings of anxiety that many people experience." Kim's anxiety and depression were well documented in her song lyrics for those who chose to look closely.