"what follows is one of the rarest and most precious feelings a human being can have"
Although I generally stand by the feeling or sentiment behind that contention, it was a bit much and perhaps just a little bit overdramatic.
I've never been a parent and I can easily come-up with many more examples of extraordinary feelings and peak experiences.
What I was trying to convey is that as you're moving away from something you've invested so much in for most of your life - everything... more than I can put into words - you suddenly find yourself in uncharted territory. Suddenly you're left with no one but yourself and more questions about yourself than you've probably ever had to honestly deal with. How did this happen? What was it about me? I thought I was smarter than that. What's left of me? Now what? The list goes on.
Even the place you've always retreated to, the shelter within, is suddenly called into question. After all, even that is nothing without Prem Rawat.
My point is that getting to know your SELF in such a real, unvarnished way without any crutches, a process that unfolds over a long period of time (cult recovery) is deeply rewarding and I can't emphasize that enough. What emerges on the other end is far better, and far better than anything you ever expected.
I hope that's better.
