I struggled with that as well. As for indoctrination, it struck at the core of the fear of Maharaji (Prem Rawat) and his "omnipotent" powers: "Guru Maharaji. The Lord. All powerful." His exact words. Fear that something bad will happen if I break that promise. Fear that Prem Rawat could cast me to the other side of the universe with the blink of an eye if I disobeyed him. We were so indoctrinated that not only did Prem Rawat say such things, but we repeated them to each other.

(To anyone reading this, please don't laugh. I know it's funny, but still... That's precisely what Prem Rawat taught before he disavowed it and was so cowardly that he blamed his own words on his followers... even as he secretly continued to act and manipulate them accordingly and allowed them to continue to believe it!!)

"Revealing" the techniques was universally understood by premies to be the worst thing a premie could possibly do. I was shocked the first time I saw the techniques revealed (stupid word) explained on this forum. Moreover, I was raised to believe that breaking a promise was one of the worst things I could do. I had that working against me as well.

So I'm entrusted with the combination to the safe the bank robber stashed all his loot in. The ONLY reason Prem Rawat made us promise was to protect his secret source of all his ill-begotten, shamelessly exploitative conman gain used to support his insatiable greed.

I thought of you when I posted this recently:

There are countless examples across all aspects of law. 

So, as I'm sure you know, no need to feel any stress. To the contrary, please take comfort in knowing that you're ethically doing everything you can do to protect others from this fraud.

Bob