I often relate to what you write and am inspired to write things myself by what you say about your own experiences. And some of the greatest thinkers and writers agree with your bias against religion and religious leaders. Christopher Hitchen and Stephen Fry are two that leap into my thoughts as I write this. And I adore them!

As for my own spiritual journeys, I think a lot of my pathology about religion comes from a dysfunctional childhood with an abundance of stressful sibling relationships and parents who simply were not committed to parenting despite the society of their day expecting this of them. My mother was a loving, kind and generous woman who felt that if the children were alive at the end of the day, she had done her job. My father believed that all anyone could expect of him was a paycheck - he was a man who never actually fulfilled any of his lifelong dreams (to sail the world or own a small airport). They were both deeply depressed people, intellectuals who didn't fit into suburbia, and who had no idea what to do with the 7 children they had somehow produced despite various forms of contraception being available to them. 

I only tell you this to show that nothing about me is exceptional in the least. I simply searched for some kind of meaning to the confusion of life, the universe and everything. I looked in science fiction novels, wishing I had been left here on this planet by aliens, who would one day return to rescue me (ET phone home). I then tried Buddism before searching for a guru. It was just my bad luck that prem was arising at the time I was looking for something. 

And after dragging myself out of his cult, I managed to mess up all of my interpersonal relationships and jobs so turned again to "God" in the form of the Catholic Church. what kind of an idiot gets immeshed in a cult twice? Well, that's the kind of idiot I am.

I do have a talent for writing a little, and have always enjoyed it. I have always kept a journal because I live alone and need someone other than my cats for conversation. So I talk to myself by writing. It is less obvious how crazy I am this way. I thank science for inventing cell phones because I can talk to myself while shopping and people just think I am on a phone call! 

Anyway, this is way off topic, but I just wanted to reassure you that you are far from pedestrian and if you really have reached the understanding of not being able to know everything, then yes indeed, you are a fully realised soul! LOL

Enjoy then, your blessed state of enlightenment. It is now time to go out and form your own religion and start recruiting followers. I won't be signing up however, as I don't think I could survive joining a cult for a third time.