Re: "Never underestimate the power of deception and manipulation.."
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lesley ®

10/02/2017, 17:42:25
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On the straight spouses forum they call it the gaslighting fog and talk about getting away somewhere so they can have a think.

But with premies where can they go where God is not.

What's so awful is all the thoughts that don't happen - I don't understand it but there is this thing that is like the wicked stepmother pricking Sleeping Beauty with a poisoned needle and when you wake up all this time has passed and this vital part of your thought process, a piece of your energy has been asleep from that moment until now.  

When I exited I remember the feeling of being 18 again and then years later, the feeling of being 19 again when I left my unfit marriage - so precise, again a vital part of my energy and the thoughts to go with it came back to life.

and I think this is a common experience.  How it works how it happens I don't really have any idea.  

I hear that premies are still the same as ever - which gets ever more eerie as we mature and they are still believing in every word Mr Rawat utters.

I think the reason so many of us left after being at Amaroo is because you are slap dang up against the reality of Mr Rawat but it isn't in the context of a Californian mansion it is on the land, it's a place where frogs croak, birds sing and the wallabies roam and eat a lot of grass.  it is ringed by hills and the quiet of the bush.






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