Re: A spontaneous essay on "normal"
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09/30/2017, 18:31:41
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yes - "shut up and obey agya" - it couldn't have been worse than to join a cult because that meant we got a dose of live religious bacteria.  It is such a loss of freedom which you do to yourself - I mean there are even religions where people whip themselves and that's the essence of religion  -  a self-inflicted scourging of your soul.  No you can't love anyone heart and soul because you have to love God the most of all.

It makes it possible for people to maintain difficult or unfair relationships because everything's okay as long as you keep in good with god.  Arrgghhh - just typing that reminded me of how utterly terrible I felt when I displeased Rawat by having a bike accident on his property.  Amplified a thousandfold by believing I had displeased God.

so yes I revel in my apostasy these days.  I am just so glad I'm not religious and I don't care how many people don't like my lack of Christian or Buddhist sensibilities, it's too important to me.

It's a heck of a silver lining.  Looking back to when I first arrived here it is like I grasped a shining little something, a point of stability, and slowly it grew and been remarkably strong because getting to an elephant-free zone does take circumstance as well.

"But beyond the cult, it boils down to how to cope with so much frustration, resentment and manipulation....when one is hand-tied .....from doing anything about it."

I can so relate to this Lakeshore.  It's a serious situation to be in and it happens so much.  Recognising it and stating it is of course doing something about it.  It gives you a bit of detachment, which is key to handling manipulation.

Good for you being able to curse like a sailor - I am a bit unimaginative - I tend to just repeat the F word several times in a row when I need to swear.  






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