i appreciate your insights. I don't know, the way I read it, he was reminiscing, and one could read my post as scolding him. Certainly, not my intent, I am as capable of reminiscing as the next person. If I had taken the time, and that was where I faulted myself, being hasty and unclear, if I had validated that yes, I can relate to your post, a lot, and what I struggle with, not that you should, is that reality that all those really beautiful memories took place also in an ugly abusive cult. The memories are real; the abusive cult is real. How to process? Great question. It's perhaps, odd, but, I sort of like being legitimately questioned here. I am as fallible as the next person and nothing about my story makes me a saint. It's just my life, like anyone else's.
And your insight into my examples is interesting. I picked two child abusers. There are all sorts of screwed up artists and I picked them. Woody Allen Yeah, I feel bad when I watch his movies. MJ? I am just a bit, obsessed, with his life. Not only was he a few years older than me and like millions of others his music was a part of my life, but I am obsessed with his story. Not like a fan is obsessed, more like, some combo of fan and appalled and lurid fascination. I even see a lot of parallels to Rawat in his life. Brothers, family all sucking at the tit of his fame, very very young weird prodigy, both intensely materialistic and love love love conspicuous consumption. Both love to dress up in glittery costumes. Both have a bizarre, drug dependant hidden life. Both have an inner circle you are quickly eliminated from if you question.
So yeah, MJ had real talent and earned his money. MJ gave massive amounts to charity. MJ was I believe a serial child molester. Though I think the jury in the criminal case did the right thing... there was some doubt with that case. Rawat can't dance, sing or write songs but he can play God and take people's money who think he's God. Rawat has never been accused of molested children. He did not get rid of Jagdeo when he was first told about him.
Anyway, maybe Rawat can't sleep without a Propofol drip. Like MJ, the toxic culture he has created around him makes anyone who questions him exiled.
