Thanks Inis. I really appreciate your kind comments about my previous posts. Of course when I wrote each one I was just in the moment responding to comments, telling stories, or just purging feelings, emotions, and ideas. But when taken in totality, it really is quite a snap shot of one person's exing process along with some juicy nuggets about the real Rawat in all his nastiness.
We all process differently but after almost 4 straight years of vigorous posting, I took a break for a few months then wrote that last post in March 2013 about why Premies stay. Then I went blank for several years and just could not find anything else to say. It was weird; like I had reached the bottom of the barrel with nothing left in there. Scraped clean......... and it felt like I had a brand new canvas on which to begin painting my life with whatever colors or pattern I so chose. Now I'm back with the intent of trying to help others come to terms with the whole thing.
Glad you are here and that my posts are helpful. I'm convinced that for me, there could not have been any better therapy than being active in the forum. Plus I was able to meet some wonderful people who completely understood and provided tons of badly needed support. Best wishes as your own story continues to unfold. Take care.
