Head in the sand...head in the clouds
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Inis ®

06/24/2017, 22:50:21
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"His version of peace is called HEAD IN THE SAND peace. ignore, ignore, ignore ... "

So true SuzyQ
To this I will add: head in the clouds. Based on a memory of the imagery I did carry in my own head.
I recall also a precise personal situation, very difficult, which would have required seeking help, taking action.
Instead I did have this image of flying on an higher plane, above it all. 
That I should not step down to the level of the low stabbing I was subjected to.

Nothing in my pratice of so called Knowledge, did bring me ability to handle better the challenges of life other than a strategy of avoidance.
I am aware that as human beings we deal with things differently. Trauma as far I can see having a paralyzing effect. 

Being in the cult disempowered me further. Created a vicious circle. Where I would seek refuge in meditation, the laundry room ( hehe ), going to satsangs, events etc... actually aggravating a situation which required muscled intervention.

Did I feel peaceful as a result of this strategy?
Of course not. In fact the rollercoaster got wilder and wilder.
With no help whatsoever from Rawat and his K.

Delusion, grand delusion is what comes to my mind now in regard to all of this.
I was so deluded!

As far as R saying that exes are bitter because of life challenges they blame on him...
Yes life can be challenging. 
No am not bitter.
But yes I do blame R for taking me on this foolish costly ride of serving him, sucking my focus into a lot of nothing! Brainwashing me, manipulating me. Narrowing down my experience of life, my choice of responses.
Making me believe that we were it and the rest of the world a despicable lost ignorant bunch.
When in fact I was the one kept in ignorance in his cheesy cult.













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