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06/22/2017, 18:38:33
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Thanks Cynthia for your kind thoughts and kind heart.  

I've had this imagination of you that if you had a chance you'd paste me as ... want to smack me maybe, as being too soft on the Rawats or something rather than liking my perspective.  Imagining you from only a few fragments of gathered perspective, huh!  What imaginations we can make of others.

Of course many have been in the Rawat environment and with similar or overlapping experiences, or different, but sometimes I wish I could download from my brain memories, exact virtual recordings for virtual sharing of the times around Marolyn and her children and among the people around the residence for people who never were there (of course only my subjective experience) to fill in so much nuance and fabric of those moments around them and what I could see of their lives that anyone could use to qualify their own opinions, put them together with their own involvements, but also wanting to counter opinions and efforts sometimes seeming to me reaching to be almost made out of whole cloth in judgment or just attempts somewhat flailing to paint out something seen only in fragmentary outline...curious experience of having been there among some people, then reading others casting around for making understanding out of...stuff, about them.  Like me thinking of you you'd find my perspectives just utterly distasteful and me wondering why are you so...whatever -- all out of your fragments of talk here.  ...maybe not quite a good analogy though.

Anyway, not that I'd want to go back into that environment I once knew with the Rawats, for me it was kinda the best of times and worst of times living through it, but in hindsight now it's much more interesting to me contemplating that such an environment exists(ed) thinking about it and understanding it and the dynamics of the whole scene and family and the entire culture of the thing trailing him around the world in those vast numbers still surely in India if nowhere else, to me interesting to understand it all rather than wanting to nail them all and hang 'em high, and see all the evil culprits squirm and scream in pain of justice or restitution or something... But that's just me.  Surely others have other recoveries or perplexities or each a  personal route about and out of it.  And you and many or everyone posting here have had distinct knowledge of those people, of the whole phenomenon, and your own whole hearted turn around and response now. 

But moreover of course it's eminently worthy I mean anything thing to deflect or catch others from going over the cliff into the dead ends we've discovered in our lives and in all of the forms Rawatism took for each of individuals who I think are shaking it off slowly or quickly and growing on the best and most one can, on out of it into the present potentials of goodness.

But after all maybe I don't use this website right?!  ...and so you would rightfully want to smack me.







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