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I've been looking on for a year, so here's my first post. Received "knowledge" in 72, and lived in an ashram, then a couple of premie centres etc throughout the 70s. Since then, till a year or two ago, I would be either "practising" or not, but the Guru remained the central figure in my universe. But things started to subtly shift. The first shift was when a lady I know well spoke to me of Guru's "well known shenanigans in Malibu". The second shift was when a fully committed premie told me about rumours of insane amounts of money being transported from poor communities in India to the Guru's organisation in the west. And of course the third and final nail was stumbling upon this fine site - expremie - thank you all so much. As a young man just entering adult life in the early 70s I cannot possibly express in words how much I feel I lost by getting hooked into DLM. In my first few years of involvement I lost or gave - all my money/wages, extra clothes, all my time, my home. It's a long story, but by the early 80s I was homeless, broke, confused, alcoholic, and wasted on drugs. But still in love with the Guru. I understand that all we do in life is by our own choice, but still - the anger I sometimes feel....... I think I've read on here from a couple of folk that the whole Guru cult experience has contaminated their romantic/relationship life. That is certainly my experience - we were encouraged to be celibate etc at a time in our life when its normal to be experimenting sexually and finding a good relationship. I have a history of broken down relationships and being confused about love itself. These days I am in therapy, I live alone, sometimes happy, and have passionate interests, i still like to meditate and feel joy, experience the universe and attempt to be mindful in my dealings with those around me. I hear the Guru, or Rawat, is doing a tour of the UK very soon. This makes me very upset and angry. I really wish this tour could be stopped (in my dreams), or others could be made aware of the Huge amount of damage this man and his sidekicks have done. Of course I have friends who are going to the events who seem to think I have gone a bit "funny!" I am glad you are all here and I may post again, in fact I think I will. Good wishes to all of you |
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