Welcome to the Forum. You will probably have many responses to your post today! Well written and insightful.

I was an ashram gopie for the better part of a decade. I found the Forum in 2003. I wasn't an active premie, but the emotions were HUGE. 

This is a good place to deconstruct the hidden programming and buried damage.

BEST!

Karen Kirschbaum

Waynesville, NC (Smokey Mountains)

P.S. Don't feel obliged to answer every reply.