And matter it does, even when i wish it didn't.

Bob Dylan has a song, 'You're gonna have to serve somebody'

I thought I was serving the Lord. But no. I was serving a narcissist with no empathy. It did matter in so far as I was duped. It was important for me to know that fact, less it happens again. I don't wish ill upon him, the thought does not bring me any pleasure. i agree he has his own right to believe he's the lord of the universe if he wants. 

I think he stopped believing that when he was still a child.

The things that rile me about PR don't come up all at the same time, and not often. Just once in a while, like today when I was driving and thinking about this thread and hoping we can at least have manners.... I remembered him barfing on about 'cheat and deceit' for what seemed like 5 years. Probably after your time. Still, looking back I think what a nerve, prodding us all with a regular guilt stick about the times one has cheated or deceived someone, when all along we were just deceiving ourselves sitting there being hypnotised by this blather.

 I wonder how in hell Marolyn or his mistress Monika or the kids, who know all about it, felt having to listen to him go on about cheat and deceit and meanwhile the giant elephant shaped spanner in the works! 

Little things. They come up. and no amount of guiding principal of all being the works of God's hands is gonna cut it. Because the truth is some are devils spawn. And you're gonna have to serve somebody.

We have free will and i see from your words and that of your friends that your world of action has really tried and succeeded in serving the heart of love. 

As far as the experiences of knowledge and guru we have had many talks about this on here. My understanding is there are more than 4 techniques, there are in fact 9.

I believe he practises 9 and that therefore manages to manipulate on a minor demon scale various subtle forces that we all have access to occasionally by accident or with the right training. But behind any 'power' that a human can wield in the dimensions is still the question of his integrity and his influence.

I just see him as a bad magician with dwindling power now. I do see value in the experiences I had, they were all in me, that much he was right about. he just took the credit, kept the hook and bled the self empowerment into his vessel.

Like I said, I don't feel animosity towards him. I have lost all respect though. The respect I had for him I am currently trying to give to myself.  In the world of spiritual light he has so far mastered light pollution