Re: 10 years out.....
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05/02/2017, 05:23:22
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It is a gift to have this forum to both read and express and find kinship in the shared and fairly unusual experience of leaving this particular cult.

Through connection, listening and being heard, growth happens. It's a natural process that I cut myself off from in increments as I got further involved in the illusions of the cult.
I found it hard to be myself
 I had deeply held beliefs that I didn't believe were beliefs that i hardly ever shared because although the special K was only shared word of mouth anyway (and I was very lucky to come across it, obviously) I didn't share about it because a) it was ridiculous and made my friends go all quiet and b) the master of the time had dictated to us that he should be the one to share about it because we were hopeless
Is that a convoluted enough place to start from in terms of being one self or what?

At times I go through periods of isolation, almost an involuntary reaction to when things are confronting or especially when there is evidently some currents of unrevealed emotion swimming beneath the surface. That sort of atmosphere was downright normal within the confines of cult interaction and the more I identified the more it became me too. Perhaps withdrawing is not always the best use of my free will.  
Trying just to be open minded about new ways to deal with things, and when I look at what that means, what an opportunity! 
As Brian S said in the post above, the canvas is blank now
Thank you all, it's good to grow together






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