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Thanks for your post Tarvuist and I appreciate your comments about the positive aspects of service at the residence. In all fairness, as long as I was drinking the Kool-aid in the early years, I felt very humbled and privileged to even be there. It was a very positive "service experience" where I thought I was racking up points towards enlightenment. That was the case for about the first 15 years I was traveling to the Malibu residence, from the late 80's to the early 2000's.
During the 90's while the house construction was happening, there were lots of upbeat premies around, focused on helping with the project. Then sometime around 2002-2003, drips of doubt started creeping in and I began to see things a little differently. But I stayed involved, fighting off my mind and those doubts the best I could for about 5 years.
It was during that 5 year time period when I had witnessed both Rawat and Marilyn totally drunk, and other clues I have written about that maybe this wasn't the Lord of the Universe after all. In 2007, the dam broke pretty suddenly and I couldn't continue to live the lie anymore. That's when I started reading the forum and eventually joined in with regular posts. So my negative comments about Rawat are a reflection of my own ex-ing process and may not at all be relevant to anyone else's experience.
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