As I come a go these day, yours was the first post I read since the last time I left.  Magnificent.

It captured the spirit of so much of how I feel four years ahead of you - really the beauty of being out of the cult and (thankfully and finally) back to where I was before I got swept up in it: ordinary, hopeful, up, down, striving and on and on.  Brilliant in my own mind but now wise enough to challenge every thought: a hundred more "babies" down the drain.

My advice is to enjoy being real and genuine again.  For me that includes all my extreme flaws and fractures -- the things that make me... me.

Beautiful post!

Bob