The presence of Ted Patrick (and J's kidnapping in Hartford)

brought the threat of violence to daily living, as a premie.

(I was not worried about contemporaries doing us harm;

nor neighbors nor co-workers)

I remember thinking something along the lines of 'even if ...'

(throw in some reason why deprogramming had some possible

pragmatism associated with it) '.. even if, the damage and

the violation would be awful' or something.

I'm pretty sure I was preparing arguments to present to my

family, during my kidnapping, if it came about.

Yeah, that's probably the sorts of things I was thinking about:

arguments to be used to end the awfulness, somewhat ahead

of schedule.