However I have also let myself be subjugated through this idea that all I had to do was be a light in the darkness. That inner peace was maybe enough on it's own.Or the most important thing. Sometimes the most important thing I needed to do was say NO and walk away, with or without inner peace.

 Turns out some darkness's you have to turn your back on. Among them Guru's and all manner of people spinning half truths, living divided within themselves. 

One face for the world and a different story behind the scenes. 

Inner tranquility has to come about by a sense of wholeness surely. Not lying and cheating to uphold some idea (no matter how long held) an image or a lifestyle, usually all three.

What sort of peace can a person divided within themselves offer? He might be powerful but he is not strong.

 The Ji was powerful in the way that he was a magician. 'The Greatest Magician' he once claimed. All very well being a Maji, he learned a few Rishi tricks no doubt. He had me hypnotised more than a few times. Brainwashed even. But that is not "inner peace."

 By the end of it you find you can't ask questions of either the master, another premie or yourself. That's not living, that's bamboozled