Jim Reese
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Posted by: Genny ® 08/30/2016, 14:57:00 Author Profile Edit Alert Forum Admin Post Reply

A Date With Beautiful Sorrow Hi All ~ Your recent conversations have been so compelling and thought provoking.  I haven't joined in for fear of bringing everyone down...but I find myself needing your beauty today.  Today is my Dad's birthday.  He would have been 72 had he been able to hang on long enough to create a new Tribe.  More than ANYTHING, I wish I was sitting with him, sharing a spread of amazing vegetarian food and drinking tons of wine and laughing about the old premie days... Five months ago, my mother decided to move from our beautiful Colorado Mountains to the Mystical Desert of Nevada...and because I've made such a mess of my own life I had no choice but to come with her.  On one hand, I'm more than happy to do so.  Her whole life was spent living for me, and now it's HER time, this is her retirement and I know the only reason I'm on this planet is to make sure her final decades are amazing.  On the other hand, I am now suddenly without tribe.  We originally thought this move would happen in a year or so, but once the thought was put out there it happened in two months...just like that I lost everything that comforts me and found myself having to adopt her tribe...the baby boomers that I'm now surrounded by...lucky for me, I adore the boomers !  And lucky for me, I found you.  You guys are the only ones I can share this stuff with today... Recently, the conversation was about photos of the guru, and how they've progressed over the years.  I found myself wondering which photo my Dad was looking at when he took his life.  It was 1981, so he had to have been young...probably in some god like way...but the sad truth is, is that it doesn't really matter.  It could be the most beautiful picture anyone's ever seen, and now it's the most horrifying one because it's covered in my dad's blood... I have yet to see a picture of the guru that doesn't give me a guttural reaction of sickness...they're all covered in blood to me. But what remains beautiful to me, is my Dad.  He is SO forgiven...so missed.  I have the only picture that exists of him smiling...(he looks so serious and troubled in all the rest) and I want to share it with you all.  It's 1974, my mom and I are just a few months away from leaving the guru...I was 4 1/2 years old. Happy Birthday Daddy Thank you thank you thank you...EPO! Love, Genny Well...I tried to attach the pic but am apparently not smart enough to figure it out, so, just the txt

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Re: Jim Reese --- Marianne ( Tue, Aug 30, 2016, 16:53:38 ) ( 212 bytes ) +1 Thank you --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 00:42:05 ) ( 156 bytes ) +1 Re: Thank you --- Marianne ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 10:14:36 ) ( 294 bytes ) +1 Re: Thank you --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 15:02:08 ) ( 192 bytes ) +1 Re: Thank you --- Marianne ( Thu, Sep 01, 2016, 08:27:24 ) ( 308 bytes ) Re: Jim Reese --- JHB ( Tue, Aug 30, 2016, 17:41:20 ) ( 126 bytes ) +1 Picture --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 00:45:32 ) ( 231 bytes ) +1 Re: Picture --- lexy ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 06:15:24 ) ( 265 bytes ) +1 Thx lexy! --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 11:46:28 ) ( 44 bytes ) Re: Jim Reese --- lesley ( Tue, Aug 30, 2016, 19:23:15 ) ( 162 bytes ) +1 Thank you --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 00:49:30 ) ( 228 bytes ) Re: Jim Reese --- lakeshore ( Tue, Aug 30, 2016, 19:59:30 ) ( 746 bytes ) +2 Re: Jim Reese --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 00:53:58 ) ( 139 bytes ) A better thank you! --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 14:58:22 ) ( 8948 bytes ) +1 Re: A better thank you! --- lakeshore ( Thu, Sep 01, 2016, 04:37:27 ) ( 1452 bytes ) Your web tribe loves you too --- Susan ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 09:28:35 ) ( 146 bytes ) +1 Re: love --- Genny ( Wed, Aug 31, 2016, 11:43:32 ) ( 76 bytes )