It is ironic since Maharaji has been a true thorn in Milky's side for most of the last 36 years. For most of that time he has been banished from the court of his beloved Lord. Of course that was just his "Beloved's play" or lila as we would have put it. And in the wilderness of his banishment, he has been free to contruct and worship his own imaginary Lord. It probably helps that his early intimacy with Rawat was before the onset of Lord's worst excesses.

An imaginary Lord will never hurt, abuse or reject you. An imaginary Lord will fully accept, and even appreciate, your devotion in whatever form it takes. Full of love and free from flaws, an imaginary lord is forever perfect. That is how it works for the majority of old premies who are given just the right exposure to their Lord in order to nuture their fantasy, but who never get to see him off-stage. Probably why many of them will not even read EPO.

It is so sad to witness that so many of our fellow 'seekers of truth' have become deniers and avoiders of truth. Still, their reward for years of devotion to an imaginary Lord is assured - after all, ignorance is bliss!

There was absolutely no "mock or blame" towards premies on my part, only irony and sadness. That was the whole point of saying that they had been systematically denied exposure of the true Rawat! I was caught "hook, line and sinker" for 25 years too.

I would reserve any recriminations entirely towards those that conciously collude in the grand deception and even they could be regarded as victims at some level or other. Even Rawat might be regarded as a victim, albeit a much more weathly one!

In fact it's not about blame at all as far as I am concerned, but about people making informed choices. For me it's more about exasperation that they are not. We were told for years to "leave no room for doubt" in our minds and that most insidious of all of our Lord's "five commandments" seems to have rooted deeply into the mindsets of old premies.

EPO/the forums have been known about now among most western premies for a long time now and the majority of them use the internet regulary. I still have contact with premies and do know that it is a deliberate decision of many premies not to read the sites.

I was first told about the forum towards the end of '97. The person who told me had just heard an official announcement at satsang about the existence of the forum, how bad it was and how premies should not read it. From what I can gather, many or even most of the premies at that meeting did as they were told and the others just didn't believe what they read.

It was another six months before I read the forum and the archives BTW. And then one night I googled out of curiosity...

Bunny,

...thinks.....hope Tim doesn't mind that I post this link! ( on a " no such thing as bad publicity " basis)

"Feel like a King" is on the track listing but I don't think it's sampled.